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Things have been really difficult for me, recently. I'm having to deal with heaps of difficult problems. I feel like I'm stuck in quick-sand, or something similar. Like I'm slowly sinking down-wards....
I think there's a tendency to over-look the improvements in life, because much of life is a slow step-wise process. Any achievement isn't merely an instant achievement, it tends to be the cumulative result of many small achievements.
So, although I feel like I'm stuck and struggling to deal with a lot of things, in reality I also think that I've achieved incredible results. But, they are not obvious to me. Or, they do not feel obvious to me.
Last week I had to deal with some incompetent high-level manager. Sadly, this particular high-level manager is my direct "boss". Which is frustrating, because he never inspires me with any confidence and I'm always frustrated with his intellectual weakness.
I'm also struggling with the many family problems that are still causing difficulties. I had to sit and quietly listen to my parents blabbering away about their latest problems, this weekend. Obviously I really don't respect the way they've dealt with their problems, but I have to sit and try to pretend that I respect their actions. Otherwise, no one else really cares and I don't think they'd cope.
Perhaps the surprising thing, which should be making me feel good, is the large amount of time I've spent with a very nice girl. She's a lovely girl, always talking about funny things and never hassling me about stupid things.
She also has the most refreshing taste in movies and music; Or to put it another way, she has absolutely no taste. She likes Air Supply and Chicago, and she admitted to me that she likes "crooner" music. That impressed me much more than if she had an enormous collection of crappy "alternative" band music.
But, it's weird to be meeting with someone like her. I haven't even tried to kiss her. We just meet, have some food, then talk about things. It's a slightly strange situation, I suppose. I'd quite happily have it continue for another six months.
I think there's a tendency to over-look the improvements in life, because much of life is a slow step-wise process. Any achievement isn't merely an instant achievement, it tends to be the cumulative result of many small achievements.
So, although I feel like I'm stuck and struggling to deal with a lot of things, in reality I also think that I've achieved incredible results. But, they are not obvious to me. Or, they do not feel obvious to me.
Last week I had to deal with some incompetent high-level manager. Sadly, this particular high-level manager is my direct "boss". Which is frustrating, because he never inspires me with any confidence and I'm always frustrated with his intellectual weakness.
I'm also struggling with the many family problems that are still causing difficulties. I had to sit and quietly listen to my parents blabbering away about their latest problems, this weekend. Obviously I really don't respect the way they've dealt with their problems, but I have to sit and try to pretend that I respect their actions. Otherwise, no one else really cares and I don't think they'd cope.
Perhaps the surprising thing, which should be making me feel good, is the large amount of time I've spent with a very nice girl. She's a lovely girl, always talking about funny things and never hassling me about stupid things.
She also has the most refreshing taste in movies and music; Or to put it another way, she has absolutely no taste. She likes Air Supply and Chicago, and she admitted to me that she likes "crooner" music. That impressed me much more than if she had an enormous collection of crappy "alternative" band music.
But, it's weird to be meeting with someone like her. I haven't even tried to kiss her. We just meet, have some food, then talk about things. It's a slightly strange situation, I suppose. I'd quite happily have it continue for another six months.