One more nail in the coughin
I'm in amsterdam. There was some sort of major communication glitch between myself and my mother, and it would seem that I beet her here by a day. Or more appropriately, by a night. I got here at 11:25, it is now 3:45, she arrives at amsterdam airport at 6. So, I sent my one and only a message saying that this was a screwed up night and I wanted her to tell me everything would be ok.
I did this because after she got into a very minor fender bender she sent me a similar message. I expected her to see the nastalgic humor of it and be able to say something nice in respons. Instead I received a message that really makes me wonder what is going to happen after I get home.
I think that she is just really stressed out about the distance, and the fact that I come home in a week just makes it so that every day is dragging that much slower. I know what she is going through, because I am going through it too. I just wish she would show a little solidarity on this and actually act like she was happy I was coming back, instead of acting depressed because I'm not back yet.
I understand it, I just don't like it. It is a bad omen of things to come. This is going to be one of those funny lull periods this summer, everything will be good for a little while, but just for a little while. I want to see where this goes, and I'm hoping she is just in a low spot today, but I learned a while ago that you can't fix people. You have to find one that isn't broken to start with.
we shall see.
I did this because after she got into a very minor fender bender she sent me a similar message. I expected her to see the nastalgic humor of it and be able to say something nice in respons. Instead I received a message that really makes me wonder what is going to happen after I get home.
I think that she is just really stressed out about the distance, and the fact that I come home in a week just makes it so that every day is dragging that much slower. I know what she is going through, because I am going through it too. I just wish she would show a little solidarity on this and actually act like she was happy I was coming back, instead of acting depressed because I'm not back yet.
I understand it, I just don't like it. It is a bad omen of things to come. This is going to be one of those funny lull periods this summer, everything will be good for a little while, but just for a little while. I want to see where this goes, and I'm hoping she is just in a low spot today, but I learned a while ago that you can't fix people. You have to find one that isn't broken to start with.
we shall see.