Christmas break
wow a lot has happened, but at the same time ive been bored out of my mind. my ex and i straightened a lot of stuff out...so like now i know he doesnt hate me, and we are on the same page about a lot of things, so in that respect, im very relieved cuz now i can actually hang out with some more of my friends again, since we both have like the same group of friends. yeah, that was awkward having to have a hang out with everyone and then them having to have another hang out except with mark (my ex from my old skool) and not me. yeah it got complicated, so now at least we can hang out together at the same time and feel comfortable about it. although at the same time, hes sorta "with" someone. Basically, a girlfriend without commitment? i dunno, this is the same girl that when her ex bf cheated on her that she went out and had sex with a bunch of his friends. yeah....um i dont particuraly like her and i think mark is taking a big risk kinda being "with" her. i still really care about him, and i know he can make his own smart decisions, but i still worry a lot about him and care what hes going through. I think we can be on a friends level now...although thats gonna be kinda hard for me, but whatever i'll suck it up and deal with it. its better than not seeing him at all. 2marrow im going to the movies w/ people from my old school and mark is going to be there. i dont think that other girl is going to go, and if she is im not going, but thats a whole other issue right there. As of right now tho, im gonna see him and some of my friends at the movies 2marrow. this should b intresting i guess. As for today? I think im gonna call one of my best friends from my old school, Anna, but like i dunno if my dad wants to go to the mall to get christmas shopping done, so im not sure if i should call her or not. well i'll figure it out soon i guess. i really miss the way things were...i think this whole thing with mark really made me realize how over it is, and that at least he's happy talking to someone else on the phone everynight and making her happy, etc etc. i dunno i guess i felt more special than i really was considering he's like doing all the same things for this girl like he did for me. i guess im just another knotch in the belt. so much for being special. i hope everyone is having a good break.