Exams.....
Yeah so it's been a while since i've updated....im sorry guys...i use my xanga more...if you wanna check that out the link is www.xanga.com/aworldthroughmyeyes
haha not that anyone has less of a life than i do and would actually go check it out, but ya know (im not saying u guys dont have lives, im saying i dont have one hahaha). Anyway, yeah so exams are tommarrow and i have english first which SUCKS because english is SO freakin hard to prepare for. i mean come on. Mary-lynn didnt give us the essay question or anything so besides re-reading the short stories and looking over all of the texts and filling out charts, i dont think theres much of anything else i can do. i've been studying the past few days, which is a plus as opposed to last year. I didnt really like Kristine Long tho, she was intimidating, so that made me not really wanna study for her midterm...hence the fact i did horrible on it. This year tho i love like all my teachers and my classes, therefore i actually have motivation to study. God...i hope i like my teachers next year, otherwise im screwed...haha oh well.
As far as a love life goes....i still dont have one, but im getting over my ex, which is definitly a plus. Time does heal, thank god, or at least thats what i keep telling myself. I gotta face it though, i'm always going to love him, thats just a fact. I know his new gf is gonna dick him over tho, cuz thats just who she is, she tends to do that to guys, so i dunno what i can say to that...i didnt like her before....soooooo whatever. hes the only one who doesnt see it. i hope he ends up alright. im not gonna say i dont still care about him,because i really do, but i dont want to be bitter. i want the best for him and i hope everything turns out alright with him. it just really sucks because when i lost him, i lost a best friend...which i really regret and i miss having =-/
besides that...i still kinda like someone, but im like giving up on that...we talked a good bit over winter break but i get too nervous to talk to him in school. Not that he really comes up and talks to me anyway, so i guess it evens out? i dont know, i get really mixed signals from him, but basically it would be all about ass i think...so i dont know why i like him anymore. i guess i keep hoping that it wont be like that; ya know, that he might actually on the off chance, actually LIKE me for ME. i dont know. maybe im trying to fill a void...ive liked him for a while though...so i dont know...plus i mean, well, no im not really going to get into it, but part of my liking him....well that kinda complicated therelationship with my ex and it sucks that nothing is going to come out. i mean, i kinda risked my old relationship i guess u could say, for havin a crush on him. Now i dont even think it's going to go anywhere, so its kinda depressing i risked it for something thats not even going to work out. What a waste. guys suck. welllll most of them anyway.
on another hand, theres someone else i dont really know about...iiii dunno...i dont even know if hes intrested. guys at our school really give mixed messages, i freakin hate it. sadly though, they look better then the guys at Souderton....that can be either good or patheic, but i'll leave that up to you guys to decide. however, the guys at my old school were not NEARLY this complicated. hahaha actually they prolly were i just didnt get involved with any of them until i left. go me. i dont know. i mean, sometimes i wonder if the guys act like the way they do to everyone...i mean i dont want to get my hopes up for anything if they act the same way to everyone, and i just think they're only acting like that around me ya know? It kinda sucks, i really wish i went to AFS before because i love the people there, and i wish i could have gotten to know them better before. it sucks that next year is going to be our class's last year there ya know? ok well that was my rant. i have to eat dinner. mcdonalds killed my apptite, and i only had half of a cheese burger from the dollar menu. im never eating their crap again. ew. ok i'll update again eventually haha not that anyone really reads this but o well. good luck on exams everyone!
haha not that anyone has less of a life than i do and would actually go check it out, but ya know (im not saying u guys dont have lives, im saying i dont have one hahaha). Anyway, yeah so exams are tommarrow and i have english first which SUCKS because english is SO freakin hard to prepare for. i mean come on. Mary-lynn didnt give us the essay question or anything so besides re-reading the short stories and looking over all of the texts and filling out charts, i dont think theres much of anything else i can do. i've been studying the past few days, which is a plus as opposed to last year. I didnt really like Kristine Long tho, she was intimidating, so that made me not really wanna study for her midterm...hence the fact i did horrible on it. This year tho i love like all my teachers and my classes, therefore i actually have motivation to study. God...i hope i like my teachers next year, otherwise im screwed...haha oh well.
As far as a love life goes....i still dont have one, but im getting over my ex, which is definitly a plus. Time does heal, thank god, or at least thats what i keep telling myself. I gotta face it though, i'm always going to love him, thats just a fact. I know his new gf is gonna dick him over tho, cuz thats just who she is, she tends to do that to guys, so i dunno what i can say to that...i didnt like her before....soooooo whatever. hes the only one who doesnt see it. i hope he ends up alright. im not gonna say i dont still care about him,because i really do, but i dont want to be bitter. i want the best for him and i hope everything turns out alright with him. it just really sucks because when i lost him, i lost a best friend...which i really regret and i miss having =-/
besides that...i still kinda like someone, but im like giving up on that...we talked a good bit over winter break but i get too nervous to talk to him in school. Not that he really comes up and talks to me anyway, so i guess it evens out? i dont know, i get really mixed signals from him, but basically it would be all about ass i think...so i dont know why i like him anymore. i guess i keep hoping that it wont be like that; ya know, that he might actually on the off chance, actually LIKE me for ME. i dont know. maybe im trying to fill a void...ive liked him for a while though...so i dont know...plus i mean, well, no im not really going to get into it, but part of my liking him....well that kinda complicated therelationship with my ex and it sucks that nothing is going to come out. i mean, i kinda risked my old relationship i guess u could say, for havin a crush on him. Now i dont even think it's going to go anywhere, so its kinda depressing i risked it for something thats not even going to work out. What a waste. guys suck. welllll most of them anyway.
on another hand, theres someone else i dont really know about...iiii dunno...i dont even know if hes intrested. guys at our school really give mixed messages, i freakin hate it. sadly though, they look better then the guys at Souderton....that can be either good or patheic, but i'll leave that up to you guys to decide. however, the guys at my old school were not NEARLY this complicated. hahaha actually they prolly were i just didnt get involved with any of them until i left. go me. i dont know. i mean, sometimes i wonder if the guys act like the way they do to everyone...i mean i dont want to get my hopes up for anything if they act the same way to everyone, and i just think they're only acting like that around me ya know? It kinda sucks, i really wish i went to AFS before because i love the people there, and i wish i could have gotten to know them better before. it sucks that next year is going to be our class's last year there ya know? ok well that was my rant. i have to eat dinner. mcdonalds killed my apptite, and i only had half of a cheese burger from the dollar menu. im never eating their crap again. ew. ok i'll update again eventually haha not that anyone really reads this but o well. good luck on exams everyone!