People aren't perfect; and sometimes their flaws rub each other the wrong way ( Read more... )

I've been a delusional hypocrite...
I've been judging the church, due to my fancying my self as something of an OT prophet:
saying all the stuff that is ugly but true*
but OT prophets had their shit together

I don't have my shit together, on any level.

and even if I did...
The time of judgment is passed. I'm called only to be a doer of the law, ( Read more... )

John 3 ( Read more... )

the stuff of leadership is not handing out 'challenging' pamphlets to encourage people to go through the motions of your paradigms.

the stuff of leadership is to matter-of-factly inspire people, to do as you do, but in their own way.

i has a splitting headache

my life is a mess

i both need to get some basic stuff handled
and just work on something
all I have is now

my problem is I believe everything is just supposed to be easy for me
so I keep waiting for it to be easy

I don't do this with physical things
which is probably why I've had my best results in that area

...

mood swings will probably always be with me

but I can learn to cope.
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( I'm so far from content right now )

blah, I'm depressed ( Read more... )