it's done
cory,
this is the hardest letter i've ever written, and i don't even know where to start. there are so many things that i want to say to you, so here they are
thi fact that this is how we ended is devastating. never in a million years did i think that we would be here. but in the end here we are and there's no way to change that.
what you've done and continued to do is inexcusable. you're actions are selfish and disetful and beyond hurtful. i never though you would hurt me this much and that i would be more afraid of you than i ever was of him, but thats what you're actions have done. there is no excuse for the way you talk to me. there in no excuse for never remembering our anniversary until i said something to you. there is no excuse for never following through with what you say to me, there is no escuse for the fact that you've never been there for me when i needed you. even when i had my surgery, you still didn't come even though you took the day of weeks in advance so "you could be there with me", but decided to spend the whole day with your friends. and most of all there is no excuse for your lying to me.
all i did was be there and support you and i never got the same from you. i loved you more than anything in this world and you took advantage of that over and over again. first with jessica, then erika, then haylee, then regina, then that BB girl from mazda and who knows who else there was. and on top of all that you lied straight to my face again about you're "single" myspace, which by the way, i found out that you lied again about trying to delete it. because i saw it's now got pics and logged in and set to private like theres stuff to hide. cuz if you had tried to delete it, the code would have gone to your e-mail, but i guess you just liked to keep it for when you decided to be sneeky again.
as for our anniversary, you litterally said "look happy anerver ok iam sorry that i didn't say anything ok so stop being like this" like i'm wrong to be angry. and you tell me "sorry" yet it's like it's my fault and i shouldn't be mad and i just need to "stop" cuz you didn't want to be told how aweful and hurtful and wrong that is.
and to tell me "u better be comin camping because i want my wife next to me the whole time" or "by the way i are going camping and iam goin to fix this so we can live happy ever after" and then to bring colton? it's the same thing, you never follow through with what you say to me and having your friends around is more important than me because if it wasn't then you would have taken this week to be with me and work on things and just spend time with me and you wouldn't have invited colton.
then for you to say "i want you to live in the house" but when you got it you say "i need to find a 3rd for the house" is again you going back on what you've said to me and you never following through with what you say to me. it's like the words you say to me mean absolutely nothing to you.
and for you to be angry at me for calling you on how horrible your actions are is unbelieveable. to throw in my face "we're not together adn you're still getting mad this is why we can't even fix anything" is the most cowardly thing i've ever heard. the reason i told you we could be together anymore on june 25 is because of your actions and choices, and this whole thing is because of your choices and actions again. so me "still getting mad" is not the reason why we "couldn't fix anything", it's because you can't be an honest, trustworthy, decent person.
i've never once cussed at you "because you make me do mad" or "because you frustrate me to the fullest" because i know thats not accpetable and i know it's not okay. i've never tried to talk to some other guy, let alone kept it from you for months because i could never talk to someone else because i loved you too much. i never physically kept you from getting out of a room because i didn't want you to leave. i never gave you any reason to ever remotely doubt trusting me because i never hid anything and i was alway honest. i never took away your cell phone to keep you from being able to get away or to keep you trapped. i never picked my friends over you at all, let alone when you really needed me because you always came first and i knew that if you needed me there was no where else i should be except next to you. and most of all i never lied to you, straight to your face. i could never do that to you. i could never lie to you. you did all that a more but yet you get to get angry at me and tell me "i can't do this anymore so iam done" through a text message.
when you gave me my ring you made a promise to be there for me and to be honest and truthful to me. you made a committment and you've broken both the promise and committment. i thought i would wear that ring forever and never once did i break my promise or committment to you.
there are no excuses for the things you have done to me, except for the fact that i let your be selfish and i let you be pracitally abusive to me by how hurtful you were, all because i loved you for you. but i don't like the selfish, scary person you've become. and i honestly don't know who you are anymore.
so you're done. fine, you got what you wanted, we're done. and you'll probably find someway to turn all this around to be my fault and take no responsibility for yourself, like you always do when you don't like what someone's telling you. and that's fine because deep down we both know the truth. i did nothing but help you, support you, be there for you, and love you for you. but as much as you've broken my heart, it's fine, you're done. fine. because i do not deserve what you've done and how you've treated me, because honestly i deserve so much more than that.
goodbye
whitney
this is the hardest letter i've ever written, and i don't even know where to start. there are so many things that i want to say to you, so here they are
thi fact that this is how we ended is devastating. never in a million years did i think that we would be here. but in the end here we are and there's no way to change that.
what you've done and continued to do is inexcusable. you're actions are selfish and disetful and beyond hurtful. i never though you would hurt me this much and that i would be more afraid of you than i ever was of him, but thats what you're actions have done. there is no excuse for the way you talk to me. there in no excuse for never remembering our anniversary until i said something to you. there is no excuse for never following through with what you say to me, there is no escuse for the fact that you've never been there for me when i needed you. even when i had my surgery, you still didn't come even though you took the day of weeks in advance so "you could be there with me", but decided to spend the whole day with your friends. and most of all there is no excuse for your lying to me.
all i did was be there and support you and i never got the same from you. i loved you more than anything in this world and you took advantage of that over and over again. first with jessica, then erika, then haylee, then regina, then that BB girl from mazda and who knows who else there was. and on top of all that you lied straight to my face again about you're "single" myspace, which by the way, i found out that you lied again about trying to delete it. because i saw it's now got pics and logged in and set to private like theres stuff to hide. cuz if you had tried to delete it, the code would have gone to your e-mail, but i guess you just liked to keep it for when you decided to be sneeky again.
as for our anniversary, you litterally said "look happy anerver ok iam sorry that i didn't say anything ok so stop being like this" like i'm wrong to be angry. and you tell me "sorry" yet it's like it's my fault and i shouldn't be mad and i just need to "stop" cuz you didn't want to be told how aweful and hurtful and wrong that is.
and to tell me "u better be comin camping because i want my wife next to me the whole time" or "by the way i are going camping and iam goin to fix this so we can live happy ever after" and then to bring colton? it's the same thing, you never follow through with what you say to me and having your friends around is more important than me because if it wasn't then you would have taken this week to be with me and work on things and just spend time with me and you wouldn't have invited colton.
then for you to say "i want you to live in the house" but when you got it you say "i need to find a 3rd for the house" is again you going back on what you've said to me and you never following through with what you say to me. it's like the words you say to me mean absolutely nothing to you.
and for you to be angry at me for calling you on how horrible your actions are is unbelieveable. to throw in my face "we're not together adn you're still getting mad this is why we can't even fix anything" is the most cowardly thing i've ever heard. the reason i told you we could be together anymore on june 25 is because of your actions and choices, and this whole thing is because of your choices and actions again. so me "still getting mad" is not the reason why we "couldn't fix anything", it's because you can't be an honest, trustworthy, decent person.
i've never once cussed at you "because you make me do mad" or "because you frustrate me to the fullest" because i know thats not accpetable and i know it's not okay. i've never tried to talk to some other guy, let alone kept it from you for months because i could never talk to someone else because i loved you too much. i never physically kept you from getting out of a room because i didn't want you to leave. i never gave you any reason to ever remotely doubt trusting me because i never hid anything and i was alway honest. i never took away your cell phone to keep you from being able to get away or to keep you trapped. i never picked my friends over you at all, let alone when you really needed me because you always came first and i knew that if you needed me there was no where else i should be except next to you. and most of all i never lied to you, straight to your face. i could never do that to you. i could never lie to you. you did all that a more but yet you get to get angry at me and tell me "i can't do this anymore so iam done" through a text message.
when you gave me my ring you made a promise to be there for me and to be honest and truthful to me. you made a committment and you've broken both the promise and committment. i thought i would wear that ring forever and never once did i break my promise or committment to you.
there are no excuses for the things you have done to me, except for the fact that i let your be selfish and i let you be pracitally abusive to me by how hurtful you were, all because i loved you for you. but i don't like the selfish, scary person you've become. and i honestly don't know who you are anymore.
so you're done. fine, you got what you wanted, we're done. and you'll probably find someway to turn all this around to be my fault and take no responsibility for yourself, like you always do when you don't like what someone's telling you. and that's fine because deep down we both know the truth. i did nothing but help you, support you, be there for you, and love you for you. but as much as you've broken my heart, it's fine, you're done. fine. because i do not deserve what you've done and how you've treated me, because honestly i deserve so much more than that.
goodbye
whitney