oy gavolt

[whathome17]

oh good lord i got posts from gideon and arango and i couldnt be happier. i didnt get my phase 3 but i was told that i get to go back on trails... yes... my favorite... all because of that stupid note that i wrote to jeff the day that he got sent away. damnit it was a month ago, my head was in a bad place, i was in one of my "theres no hope for me or the world" mindsets and NOW its coming back to bite me in the ass. so i have to talk to rebecca and jefferson about it on tuesday. brindle, xander, JOHN HOWL, and FREDDY went on this weekend hahahahaha brindle has a broken toe too. i never thought id see john howl do anything wrong, i guess its all that sex he had with sarah haha. ah well, i think its worth it. its rumored that brian scheller got his lip pierced and i bet it looks damn hot. im starting to think i miss gabe a lot more than i miss schelly, possibly because ive talked to gave kinda and i have no idea where brian is. ah well, c'est la vie. i love cecily so much i want her to do so well so that we can both go home and go to smith or beekman or york or wherever we can get into so that we can perform at cbgb together, we truly are a magnificent act, with our big sunglasses and disconcerting lyrics. oh my. but yes for all of you who want to know (aka arango and plotnicki) you can email me at whathome17@hotmail.com or send me mail here but i wont get to open any of it until i get my phase three which may not be for a long time but hopefully will be on wednesday. it prolly wont be because of my freak out yesterday. i yelled at libby for talking down to me when she was just tryna break it down and not freak out herself. i felt bad i made her feel really shitty and made her want to cut again which she hasnt wanted to do in a long time. we had a good talk last night though and then spent a good hour trying to teach julie how to snort. who doesn't know how to snort? its a common skill, i think she may possibly be the first person ive met to whome it is not innate. weird. then nightstaff played with us and we made all sorts of farm animal noises til around 1130 or so, she even ran outside our window to moo like a cow. she let me get food out of my food box too, it was excellent. yesterday i cleaned out my food box and there was a rotten pomagranite left over from thanksgiving weekend hahahaha. oh my. i love gideon and arango they are the loves of my life and i want pictures of them cuz i only have one picture of plotnicki!
peace ooout!