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I hope I get my phase 3 today… I think im going to get reemed in group by Katie squared (nishkian and libby) but what can ya do. Tawny said she approved me, Jacobs said he approved me, I dunno about dorm life and modules. I think modules were good, dorm life is a bit iffy but I think the new staff digs me and that I wasn’t denied even if I wasn’t approved. Ahhh I hope I hope I hope. I got to wear make up yesterday for yearbook photo retakes. I forgot how much better I look with it. gah my parents are coming out for parents weekend on the 3rd of march, if I don’t have my phase I wont get to go off campus. They said theyd bring me a sandwich from bagel bobs which makes my life near complete. I think I have recovery in 5 min. I don’t want to recover. I don’t want to cut or throw up anymore but I do want to do drugs. I think its not so much what I do that needs to change as the mindset that I have behind all of it. wow therapy is getting to me. But seriously man, I get mad paranoid when I start thinking that I need to manipulate everyone else before they manipulate me. Its not good for my head or heart or soul man. Im really happy, I just had a bomb family sesh. Time for groooup… gah. Peace out homies