real life
4 weeks from tomorrow. Holla what!
Ha ha, it's nuts how these months have flown by. Wedding planning has become more chill as I come to realize it's not about putting on some extravagant event of the century. What matters is that it will be at the temple, it will be the right person, and my family will be there with me. I've seen some pretty ridiculous shows on TV of brides spending a good 50 grand on their weddings. Spending all that money and having so much going on, it seems like the meaning of the whole thing just gets lost.
So wedding planning- not that stressful. What is stressful- planning for my life after the wedding.
This summer thus far has been one long job search. I guess it started back when I first got engaged. As I realized how much money I'd need to earn for married life, I freaked out a bit, had a little panic attack, and began the search for a good job. I am employed right now (technically). But it is VERY part-time. I'm an assistant editor on an India documentary, as I have mentioned. It's a fun job, but I haven't worked for a couple weeks, just because there isn't much to do now, so work is slow. Pretty much nonexistent. And as soon as the documentary is finished, I am out of a job.
There have been many job opportunities that have popped up since I began this search, and I think "Oh finally, here's my break!" But they all have fallen through, for one reason or another. For instance, I just got a call from a guy about a student producer job. PERFECT for my situation right now. But they are only interviewing on Monday. I'll be in Wisconsin, which has been planned for months now (Engagement party for Jordan's friends/family). I begged him to interview me on a different day (ok, I didn't beg, but I was desperate). But no luck. Monday only. Sheesh. Close, but no cigar.
I don't want this 'unemployed' status to take away the joy of getting married. But right now, it's like this huge grey cloud fogging up my view of the happy ending. I have to wait to apply for a grant until after I am married, because that is when I am the most needy, and officially cut off from parental support. So I don't know how much the government will help me. Hopefully Barack will chip in a few bones. I'll keep my fingers crossed that something will turn up. Whatever happens, being married WILL be awesome. I just hope I'll be employed.
Ha ha, it's nuts how these months have flown by. Wedding planning has become more chill as I come to realize it's not about putting on some extravagant event of the century. What matters is that it will be at the temple, it will be the right person, and my family will be there with me. I've seen some pretty ridiculous shows on TV of brides spending a good 50 grand on their weddings. Spending all that money and having so much going on, it seems like the meaning of the whole thing just gets lost.
So wedding planning- not that stressful. What is stressful- planning for my life after the wedding.
This summer thus far has been one long job search. I guess it started back when I first got engaged. As I realized how much money I'd need to earn for married life, I freaked out a bit, had a little panic attack, and began the search for a good job. I am employed right now (technically). But it is VERY part-time. I'm an assistant editor on an India documentary, as I have mentioned. It's a fun job, but I haven't worked for a couple weeks, just because there isn't much to do now, so work is slow. Pretty much nonexistent. And as soon as the documentary is finished, I am out of a job.
There have been many job opportunities that have popped up since I began this search, and I think "Oh finally, here's my break!" But they all have fallen through, for one reason or another. For instance, I just got a call from a guy about a student producer job. PERFECT for my situation right now. But they are only interviewing on Monday. I'll be in Wisconsin, which has been planned for months now (Engagement party for Jordan's friends/family). I begged him to interview me on a different day (ok, I didn't beg, but I was desperate). But no luck. Monday only. Sheesh. Close, but no cigar.
I don't want this 'unemployed' status to take away the joy of getting married. But right now, it's like this huge grey cloud fogging up my view of the happy ending. I have to wait to apply for a grant until after I am married, because that is when I am the most needy, and officially cut off from parental support. So I don't know how much the government will help me. Hopefully Barack will chip in a few bones. I'll keep my fingers crossed that something will turn up. Whatever happens, being married WILL be awesome. I just hope I'll be employed.