Happy Thanksgiving folks!
I told my lover last night that he should be my boyfriend again. After over 9 months of weekly non-committal sex, I finally just said to him out right, "I want you to be my boyfriend again." Of course, he replied with "Why change the present situation when it is good just as it is?" I then replied, "Because you make me happy in ways that no one else is able to, and because I like you, I want to see you more and I want to be able to say that YOU are MY boyfriend." He said that he'd "think about it." That's good. Saying that he will think about it is not a flat out no, and there is buffer time between the question and the response.
I don't think that we will ever get married, but for right now, this is kinda nice. I also think that if we were to be boyfriend and girlfriend, our relationship will actually get better and it will be a safer and healthier relationship to be in. He says that he likes it because there is no responsibility, and as he is exactly right about that. I think that over some time of actual commitment, things can change and our relationship will get better. If he says yes to this, that means that he is saying yes he really likes me and yes he is choosing to be with me too. That's a big deal. Now, if he lies and sees other people or really doesn't give a shit about it, then the relationship won't last, and then this saga can finally be over. It being over could potentially be good for the both of us too. I love him, but I want both of us to be happy, together or apart. I think that with the way things are right now, we are not benefiting as much as we could be from what we have. I think that a slightly more committed relationship will be better. It will also show us if we are meant to be together. This wishy washy stuff, isn't really going anywhere. I want progress in any direction. :P As of June, things have only been getting better between us, so why not take the next step? It could be hard as hell, but it is not easy now, so the difference will be the label. But to me, that is what will make it sexy.
I don't think that we will ever get married, but for right now, this is kinda nice. I also think that if we were to be boyfriend and girlfriend, our relationship will actually get better and it will be a safer and healthier relationship to be in. He says that he likes it because there is no responsibility, and as he is exactly right about that. I think that over some time of actual commitment, things can change and our relationship will get better. If he says yes to this, that means that he is saying yes he really likes me and yes he is choosing to be with me too. That's a big deal. Now, if he lies and sees other people or really doesn't give a shit about it, then the relationship won't last, and then this saga can finally be over. It being over could potentially be good for the both of us too. I love him, but I want both of us to be happy, together or apart. I think that with the way things are right now, we are not benefiting as much as we could be from what we have. I think that a slightly more committed relationship will be better. It will also show us if we are meant to be together. This wishy washy stuff, isn't really going anywhere. I want progress in any direction. :P As of June, things have only been getting better between us, so why not take the next step? It could be hard as hell, but it is not easy now, so the difference will be the label. But to me, that is what will make it sexy.