What is LOVE<3
I think and know what love is but why is it so hard to explain. I have only been in love with one person in my life, and thats John. I love him so much and I use to think he didnt love me. But the thing is I know he loves me and I know now that he has loved me for some time. But if you love someone then why would or could you think that the person that you love is to good for you? I dont think hes better than me but I dont think I am better than him. Everyday I tell myself that I am getting better at this but the reality is that I miss him more and more and I wonder more and more. Why did he do this us, why did he run, why is he so ashamed, why wont he just let us happen? All these questions I want answered sooo bad but he wont even talk to me. He use to tell me everything, I use to be the person he talked to when things were bad and now I am the one person he hides everything from. I want to move on and give myself completely to Andrew but I dont want to let myself fall in love with someone before I know everything that happened. I know that he will eventually tell me and talk to me. That we will at least be friends again one day even though we are always going to want more. I like Andrew a lot, I love him... but I a not in love with him. I just want to be happy. I dont want to pretend to be happy either. I want to be honestly and truley happy. I want that for John too. I want him to do great things and be a good person and not for me but for him! Ashley sent me this and I eventually sent it to John with no responds:
"One day you're going to want that girl.That girl that knew she wasn't perfect but tried to be perfect for you. THAT GIRL WHO WANTED NOTHING MORE THAN TO BE THERE FOR YOU. Love you the way she knows she only could. THE GIRL WHO SEES YOUR FLAWS, BUT VALUES THEM AS MUCH AS YOUR STRENGTHS. That girl who still can't bring herself to hate you. That girl who saw past your pretty face and treasured parts of you that no one else had ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart, But will carry the image of you in hers forever. The girl that should have you, but doesnt. Even though she deserves it."
THE GIRL WHO SEES YOUR FLAWS, BUT VALUES THEM AS MUCH AS YOUR STRENGTHS. I honestly and truley believe this. I do feel this way. I dont think that I am better than him. I dont want him to think that either. I guess things happen for reasons, but I dont want John to be out of my life. Hes my first LOVE.
But what is Love really? Is it what Aristotle said, " Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."... That would make sense, John makes it feel that way. O well I will get better. Things will get better.
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"One day you're going to want that girl.That girl that knew she wasn't perfect but tried to be perfect for you. THAT GIRL WHO WANTED NOTHING MORE THAN TO BE THERE FOR YOU. Love you the way she knows she only could. THE GIRL WHO SEES YOUR FLAWS, BUT VALUES THEM AS MUCH AS YOUR STRENGTHS. That girl who still can't bring herself to hate you. That girl who saw past your pretty face and treasured parts of you that no one else had ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart, But will carry the image of you in hers forever. The girl that should have you, but doesnt. Even though she deserves it."
THE GIRL WHO SEES YOUR FLAWS, BUT VALUES THEM AS MUCH AS YOUR STRENGTHS. I honestly and truley believe this. I do feel this way. I dont think that I am better than him. I dont want him to think that either. I guess things happen for reasons, but I dont want John to be out of my life. Hes my first LOVE.
But what is Love really? Is it what Aristotle said, " Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."... That would make sense, John makes it feel that way. O well I will get better. Things will get better.
<333BOBE