Innocence
Sarah Buxton sang it for me. Described my life in a song. I always think I miss that someone I was with. But in reality I just miss that feeling of being innocent. Of life before sex and alcohol came into my life. I miss being innocent when kissing someone was a big step in life. Where holding hands was the best thing in the world. I just miss that. I want to be with someone that I can be innocent with. That is why I like talking to younger guys because they are not old enough to drink yet and have only experienced a few things. Now I don’t mean young like 12 or 13 I mean young like 18 or 19. I can’t seem to find someone that is not all about sex or blow jobs. I mean I want that. But I want the innocence first. Kissing, holding hands, watching movies, taking drives. Just the little things in life that is seems we forget about the older we are. I want to stay in on a Friday night and just hang out. Play a board game or play some card games. Just the innocent stuff. We have our whole lives to have sex and mess around in a sexual manner. But once you move pass the innocence in your life it is hard to start over. But I am going to try. I wish I was still a virgin. I wish I would have waited. I wish for a lot of things that most likely will not come true. I just want to feel that feeling again. The first kiss feeling. The cuddling in the dark just holding each other. Taking walks and holding hands. I want to be 16 again. And live my high school years over. So I can do it right. Live an innocent life and never have sex or other things. I just want to feel it all over again. And I think as a society right now sex is a big thing. And I wish people would tight to that innocence they have not let go of it until they are sure they are ready too. I don’t know but this has been my thoughts lately. I miss my innocence and I will get it back someday I hope. Well bye all for now.
Love, Only The Best David!