And again for me
So ive been much better lately...but lets recap
A few weekends ago my bro went into the hospital with several problems (which now is just a doctors mistake turned blood infection) and i freaked out....some of the surrounding circumstances really freaked me out. And then there was the Thursday night freakout before that, which turned out to be justifyied but it felt nice. Walking out of the shower, coming out of the worst mood ive ever been to find someone, let alone jason, felt like a fairy tale. Best feeling ever.
So lately ive been ok, my head has simmered down and the majority of the dreams have stopped. Firday was the bros 30th and was hysterical. My grandma m flipped out at seeing two guys hugging and had me and lauren going hysterical. Twas nice to see Kaliee and Shannon too, those two are growing up fast....theyve heard the word SLUT lol. Oh and i went to church with Jason, kinda weird, not as social or entertaining as Beckys but nice nonetheless...better than a catholic sermon.
And so Easter....started off great but why cant my mom just stop bitching about shit thats already happened and not make me and chris feel guilty for shit that was taken care of....and doesnt directly concern her either!! I mean she really needs to simmer...she pissed me off so much...lol i should have gone to jasons. And that was really cool that his mom invited me, it meant alot.
So now ive got all these weird thoughts roaming in my head...i dont know what to make of them, how to handle it or what it all means but whats new?
So i want to be productive...so how about wednesday, i make a big eater/thanksgivingish meal and have everyone over?!? Regardless of the day i want to try this cause when everyone was gone today and my discontentment was at its highest...i realized that i need to make my own ideas come true rather than wishing for them....whats everyone think?
A few weekends ago my bro went into the hospital with several problems (which now is just a doctors mistake turned blood infection) and i freaked out....some of the surrounding circumstances really freaked me out. And then there was the Thursday night freakout before that, which turned out to be justifyied but it felt nice. Walking out of the shower, coming out of the worst mood ive ever been to find someone, let alone jason, felt like a fairy tale. Best feeling ever.
So lately ive been ok, my head has simmered down and the majority of the dreams have stopped. Firday was the bros 30th and was hysterical. My grandma m flipped out at seeing two guys hugging and had me and lauren going hysterical. Twas nice to see Kaliee and Shannon too, those two are growing up fast....theyve heard the word SLUT lol. Oh and i went to church with Jason, kinda weird, not as social or entertaining as Beckys but nice nonetheless...better than a catholic sermon.
And so Easter....started off great but why cant my mom just stop bitching about shit thats already happened and not make me and chris feel guilty for shit that was taken care of....and doesnt directly concern her either!! I mean she really needs to simmer...she pissed me off so much...lol i should have gone to jasons. And that was really cool that his mom invited me, it meant alot.
So now ive got all these weird thoughts roaming in my head...i dont know what to make of them, how to handle it or what it all means but whats new?
So i want to be productive...so how about wednesday, i make a big eater/thanksgivingish meal and have everyone over?!? Regardless of the day i want to try this cause when everyone was gone today and my discontentment was at its highest...i realized that i need to make my own ideas come true rather than wishing for them....whats everyone think?