Seems like I fulfilled another prophecy of mine. Alone again, and it's all my fault. As usual. Even if I shave this potato form of mine, will I ever be nothing more than an ugly potato? I'm trying so hard to be something... but for what end? Will it even make a difference, and is that difference just superficial (because it's for him), or selfish ( ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder why life is so cruel to me....

Then I remember I'm an ugly potato, and realize that's the fate of all ugly potatoes.

I don't know what to think, or feel. I never do. I act without fully being aware where my emotionalism will take me. You would think I would know better by now. But I don't. I'm too lazy, too stubborn..... too apathetic to change. I am who I am because of both my experiences that I've been through, and how I chose to handle them ( Read more... )

I haven't posted here in ages, mostly because of all the flak I've received over the years for the things I've shared ( Read more... )

Well, it has been a while since I have wrote here. Why? My thoughts and feelings go un... what's the word.... ah yes.... unappreciated by others. My heart and mind have not changed. Or have they? I write here now because I wish to brag. Yes, selfish. I have a boyfriend. A real boyfriend. Yes. REAL. Flesh and blood! No. I don't imagine that he is ( Read more... )

I am just worthless bauble ( Read more... )

Sorry.. I got caught up in things and haven't been around. I fell in love.. got that heart broken.. and I'm trying to move on with a new one in my life. Although this guy has been in my life for over a year, I have ignored his feelings for me until now. I'm going to give it one last shot. I know some of you think it's too soon.. and maybe it is ( Read more... )

I'm back to normal... sorta... I think I'm starting to come to terms with myself. I still miss WindStorm though. I went to see if I could catch her coming off of work, but either she didn't work today, or else she was already gone by the time I got there. I was somewhat depressed about it. I was thinking of going to Church... but I don't think I ( Read more... )

I've got to get out of "Sally's"!!! First... I wake up to a naked fat woman walking around in the main part of the "women's dorm"... not something I want to see EVER AGAIN ( Read more... )

I sit here, alone, as always full of angst. I have no friends, no family to rely on. I have myself only, and the dark thoughts that occupy my already full mind. I wish I had someone to comfort, to give me comfort, from these nightmares that dwell inside my mind. I hurt and I feel hurt, though no actual pain is done. I sit here alone as always, ( Read more... )