one will come to me someday
Yea I can't ever think of a subject lol. Oh well anyways. I don't even know why I bother writing in here. I am glad no one reads it though because it's like a diary but it's not so dorky looking. Ya know?
Scotty has been dissapointing me a lot lately. Maybe I am unhappy because of it? I wouldn't be happy without him but I am not happy right now. So hmm.. that sucks. It seemed like he loved me more a few months back. He would come over my house late at night just to see me and he would try harder. Now it's like I am not that special anymore. There is something else, he says no and I feel like I am not good enough but I never really have been in a relationship so I won't blame him for that. He's not scared, it's just I am not good enough. I don't think he plans on staying with me. That's why it's a no and ya know he wasn't scared the 1st 2 months we were together but now he is? It should have been the opposite but whatever. That's not what I am about anyways, all the thoughts about what the "no" means is what is getting to me.
You know what makes everything look like shit? It's when in every live journal entry I have... the bulk of the entry is about problems in my relationship. I don't know what I want in life. It scares me. But I don't care. Why should I? I'll only get stressed out and do my bad habbit. It is getting bad again. I am really unhappy and I am not saying this for people to say sorry for me. I just got to say somethings or I'll keep crap inside and it will get worse. Oh well whatever. I am done for the night and I have tomorrow off of work, I am glad, so does Scotty yay. Well maybe tomorrow I'll be happy. Lately I get happy around Scotty but then he is all in a bad mood and I get upset and it starts all over :( well whatever. later
Scotty has been dissapointing me a lot lately. Maybe I am unhappy because of it? I wouldn't be happy without him but I am not happy right now. So hmm.. that sucks. It seemed like he loved me more a few months back. He would come over my house late at night just to see me and he would try harder. Now it's like I am not that special anymore. There is something else, he says no and I feel like I am not good enough but I never really have been in a relationship so I won't blame him for that. He's not scared, it's just I am not good enough. I don't think he plans on staying with me. That's why it's a no and ya know he wasn't scared the 1st 2 months we were together but now he is? It should have been the opposite but whatever. That's not what I am about anyways, all the thoughts about what the "no" means is what is getting to me.
You know what makes everything look like shit? It's when in every live journal entry I have... the bulk of the entry is about problems in my relationship. I don't know what I want in life. It scares me. But I don't care. Why should I? I'll only get stressed out and do my bad habbit. It is getting bad again. I am really unhappy and I am not saying this for people to say sorry for me. I just got to say somethings or I'll keep crap inside and it will get worse. Oh well whatever. I am done for the night and I have tomorrow off of work, I am glad, so does Scotty yay. Well maybe tomorrow I'll be happy. Lately I get happy around Scotty but then he is all in a bad mood and I get upset and it starts all over :( well whatever. later