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so im doing ok after my break down. work is busy. busy busy busy
so. im back on drugs. or starting. pft. i dont know how i feel. its what i wanted. i think... but it doesnt seem to be doing what its supposed to. they have me on a serious painkiller for my hip. and when i take that, i feel great. first time i have been without hip pain in almost 10 years. but... i feel out of it, and its a serious drug too. im also back on zoloft. i dont remember ever feeling like this when i first started. im on 50 mg, half a dose, and i feel weird... but just my head... kind of dizzy, stuffy, fuzzy... the rest of my body doesnt feel drugged. maybe its because its been out of my system for nearly 2 years. and i was on it for nearly 10 years. so.. its been awhile since i first started taking it years ago. i dont know...
ive been thinking about moving a lot. now i dont know if i want to. but i still really want to. im so torn. a literal 50/50 split, down to all the infinite decimals...
so. im back on drugs. or starting. pft. i dont know how i feel. its what i wanted. i think... but it doesnt seem to be doing what its supposed to. they have me on a serious painkiller for my hip. and when i take that, i feel great. first time i have been without hip pain in almost 10 years. but... i feel out of it, and its a serious drug too. im also back on zoloft. i dont remember ever feeling like this when i first started. im on 50 mg, half a dose, and i feel weird... but just my head... kind of dizzy, stuffy, fuzzy... the rest of my body doesnt feel drugged. maybe its because its been out of my system for nearly 2 years. and i was on it for nearly 10 years. so.. its been awhile since i first started taking it years ago. i dont know...
ive been thinking about moving a lot. now i dont know if i want to. but i still really want to. im so torn. a literal 50/50 split, down to all the infinite decimals...