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its been a long time since ive even been on livejournal. over the summer jackie and i moved to prescott in our own apartment so she could be closer to her dad. her mom and her ended up getting in a huge fight and she called me crying and begged me to come with her. she told me it was right in the middle of everything so if she did decide to be on okay terms with her mom again she could visit her, but she could never live with her again, but that i would be close to home too. i gave in. i cant stress how hard i fell for this girl in may.
we moved and everything was great. i had a job. she had a job. we were paying our bills. we were getting along. until one day her ex boyfriend called. he told her he just wanted to see her and talk things over and give her the closure she wanted months ago. she told him okay but she just wanted to be friends and he agreed.
she dated this kid when she was 16 until january. he lived in prescott and she met him in the summer when she was visiting her dad and it just worked, but when it came down to it he cheated on her over and over again. so i see why he wanted to give her the closure she wanted for so long but why now?
she went out that night and i guess they had coffee. she came home and she seemed happy. i asked her how it went. i tried so hard not to be a jealous boyfriend and i feel like i did good. she said it was great and shes glad it was in the past now.
everything was fine. EVERYTHING. we didn't hear from him for weeks. it was just me and her. i really believed i had nothing, absolutely nothing to worry about. until he called and asked if she wanted to hang out. she asked me if it was okay. i was reluctant but i told her i was okay with it anyway.
i waited around forever that night and she still wasn't home by 3 so i went and laid down. she came stumbling in drunk at 4 30. i was so mad at her. i blew her off all day the next day. she apologized over and over again. telling me she was sorry and she'd never do it again. i didn't want to ask her if anything happened, but i did. she said they just went out for a few drinks and talked and before she knew it it was 4 am. i told her i forgave her. i didn't want to say much more about it because i didnt want to fight. she said sorry.
well again he wants to hang out. she agrees again. i shouldve just told her how i felt about it because maybe now i wouldnt be writing this. well anyway she leaves at 5 30pm and she didnt came home until 5 30pm the next day. she ignored my calls and my texts. when she walked in the door she just looked down and started crying.
i fucking knew she was gonna tell me she cheated on me or that she was still in love with him OR BOTH.
she told me she was sorry and at first they were just hanging out and how they went the movies and he kissed her and she kissed back and before they knew it they were back at his place and they had sex. she told me she wish she could take it back but its not fair she did it and that it was over.
i didnt say anything. i couldnt. i appreciated her honesty but at the same time i wish she wouldve just lied to me. i wish she wouldve just said her phone died and she was too drunk to drive home or he was too drunk to drive home.
needless to say i moved back. i got a job working for my dad. me and him are a lot closer than we use to be but i wish i was still in prescott with her.
a lot of this was brought on by her phone call to me last night. i knew she was scared to call me but i talked to her anyway. she asked me if i was doing okay and i told her i was living. i asked her if she was good and she told me she wasnt. she told me she had been seeing dustin for a few weeks and ended it with him because there was no point in seeing him. she told me she missed me most of all because it was the first time she had something really good and that she was so sorry and she really hoped we could be friends.
we got off the phone and i cried myself to sleep. i'm such a fucking pussy.
we moved and everything was great. i had a job. she had a job. we were paying our bills. we were getting along. until one day her ex boyfriend called. he told her he just wanted to see her and talk things over and give her the closure she wanted months ago. she told him okay but she just wanted to be friends and he agreed.
she dated this kid when she was 16 until january. he lived in prescott and she met him in the summer when she was visiting her dad and it just worked, but when it came down to it he cheated on her over and over again. so i see why he wanted to give her the closure she wanted for so long but why now?
she went out that night and i guess they had coffee. she came home and she seemed happy. i asked her how it went. i tried so hard not to be a jealous boyfriend and i feel like i did good. she said it was great and shes glad it was in the past now.
everything was fine. EVERYTHING. we didn't hear from him for weeks. it was just me and her. i really believed i had nothing, absolutely nothing to worry about. until he called and asked if she wanted to hang out. she asked me if it was okay. i was reluctant but i told her i was okay with it anyway.
i waited around forever that night and she still wasn't home by 3 so i went and laid down. she came stumbling in drunk at 4 30. i was so mad at her. i blew her off all day the next day. she apologized over and over again. telling me she was sorry and she'd never do it again. i didn't want to ask her if anything happened, but i did. she said they just went out for a few drinks and talked and before she knew it it was 4 am. i told her i forgave her. i didn't want to say much more about it because i didnt want to fight. she said sorry.
well again he wants to hang out. she agrees again. i shouldve just told her how i felt about it because maybe now i wouldnt be writing this. well anyway she leaves at 5 30pm and she didnt came home until 5 30pm the next day. she ignored my calls and my texts. when she walked in the door she just looked down and started crying.
i fucking knew she was gonna tell me she cheated on me or that she was still in love with him OR BOTH.
she told me she was sorry and at first they were just hanging out and how they went the movies and he kissed her and she kissed back and before they knew it they were back at his place and they had sex. she told me she wish she could take it back but its not fair she did it and that it was over.
i didnt say anything. i couldnt. i appreciated her honesty but at the same time i wish she wouldve just lied to me. i wish she wouldve just said her phone died and she was too drunk to drive home or he was too drunk to drive home.
needless to say i moved back. i got a job working for my dad. me and him are a lot closer than we use to be but i wish i was still in prescott with her.
a lot of this was brought on by her phone call to me last night. i knew she was scared to call me but i talked to her anyway. she asked me if i was doing okay and i told her i was living. i asked her if she was good and she told me she wasnt. she told me she had been seeing dustin for a few weeks and ended it with him because there was no point in seeing him. she told me she missed me most of all because it was the first time she had something really good and that she was so sorry and she really hoped we could be friends.
we got off the phone and i cried myself to sleep. i'm such a fucking pussy.