Moving on....
Another day again. Josh called. He's been asking very difficult questions that I wish I could give him all the answers to. We've only known each other for almost a week. I know what he wants and I know what I want and I don't know how to work in between the lines. I figured that he'd ask me those things in about 2-3 weeks and I'd get all this time to figure out how to answer, but no he asks them now. Things like past relationships and why I didn't date anyone for the past year and who was the last guy I went out with and why that ended and blah blah blah. I gave as little of an answer as I could and maybe later I can explain. He asked where we stand as of now...I don't plan things like that. I guess I'm gonna let things flow. I knew from the beginning this would be more than just prom and I would like to give him a chance because I think he's a nice guy and it's about time I date a nice guy....hmm date I guess thats what I'll do and then we'll see what happens from there. I feel better now.
Rachel is totally being my emotional support right now. I love her so much. She knows my big secret and is helping me not show how I really feel. I didn't think that I'd still feel the way I do, but I do.
Her date is younger than her and it bothers her a lot. She had trouble dealing with the same questions. Whatever happen to guys being dicks. I'd like one of those again. At least our dates are very similar. They can't dance, they like rock and roll, Josh plays guitar, Alex plays bass, both smoke, and they're really nice. We were worried that we'd have to babysit them at prom and wouldnt get time to be with each other but they can just bond while we dance and now and then maybe they'll join us for a slow dance. I'm literally emo right now.