Cold but Im still here

[vienababe]

How to post this.... You know when you close your eyes and you relax you can see everything in front of you that is important... even when that something has hurt beyond your own belief... they've hurt you so bad that you cant even believe it... but at the same time.. you know... that this isnt the end... you know you have a future with that person... and that future is coming soon... its strange and alluring... and its kinda like watching a play... because you see how its going to end... your popcorn in hand and your chewing on a butterfinger... and your pointing at the screen and telling everybody how this is going to end... but nobody believes you cause its such a strange twist... but you just know... its going to happen... soon...
You know... I used to cry and struggle with my little personal tragedies... but now-a-days I just laugh... I do... how morbid am I? Have I lost my reality button or what?? I am pointing and laughing at my own bullshit.. and saying things like... well shit... and should've seen that coming... geez... I used to be so good at deciding things... nowadays I kinda suck at it... lol... Im laughing harder because I didnt realize how much I loved her until this happened... I knew I loved her.... I knew the moment I fell in love... but I didnt know how much I loved...
I will be everything you want when you want it...
Wait for me... Trust for me fall for me
even when you dont know you fall for me
will you fall for it?