Fucking Bullshit

[vienababe]

Hmmm... I would love to elaborate on my situation but I honestly do not feel like elaborating at this time... My situation sucks.... I miss the way we used to be... I miss how we used to be together... shes back with her ex... and Im stuck LIVING in this situation... whats sad is that she has NO IDEA what she has given up... how can you possibly give up someone who cares for you more than themselves? How can you not even give a reason for your sporatic behavior?? Give me an explination please!!!! Tell me what you want!!!! You want me gone Im gone; you want me here I am here for you; you want me to never talk to you again then we're not talking; you want me to wait until you come to your senses, then Im sitting right here waiting... just tell me what you want so I can decide what it is I do with myself now... because I dont think I can begin to move on until I know that we are forever done... are you testing me? To see how far i can go until I finally bend so hard I break... just like you break my heart... when you looked at me when you were holding her, to see my reaction... my hardend expression turned to a soft pleading one... Im pleading for you to be less cruel... Im pleading for you to remember what I meant to you... because you would never do that shit to me, if you could just remember who I am... Look at me!!!! Remember when I kissed you in the rain... our first real kiss... in the woods in the rain when I stopped the truck and grabbed your hand to help you out... I just pulled you towards the woods... you laughing asking what I wanted to show you, I wheeled you around looked you in the eyes and kissed you passionatly... you were so surprised and stunned you didnt stop smiling the entire way home... that weekend was all about us... we were together and nothing else mattered... I should have kept it that way... I should have never moved here so fast... you would have NEVER ended up with sandra again... You would called me instead and planned when I was coming down... I wish I would have thought alot smarter.
I miss you... Lizzie... my :Lizzie: