Happy birthday, Vice (XV)
Setting: A global pandemic that has upended day to day life
Today was filled with things that were just inconvenient enough.
It's okay that A-Kon was cancelled this year, I told myself. I'd have my own fun. I'm good at that. Saw Ricky and the homies at his mom's, and kept social distance. Spent money, ate good food. Ended up cleaning and organizing more than I wanted to. That's okay, I'll take my birthday off. Nope, can't leave my coworker unsupervised (my inclination to do so was correct) so I had to come in. That's all right, Grace couldn't make it down this weekend because of work and her car anyway. My mom calls me and then goes to the ER, but is released shortly there after. She seems fine when I visited her in the evening. Jason says she's irritated at my caution because of the pandemic but I really don't want her to suffer as a result of this. I'm trying my best to make it easy and make up for when I have to be more careful at the cost of togetherness, but I guess it doesn't feel like enough sometimes.
Just barely got to see the fun birthday Death Stranding stuff just now. I want that cake someday. Jason got me a dupe cheesecake but it's still delicious. He's going to come home with pizza and I think I'll try to get us to watch Star Wars.
I know why I'm really sad. Because something that felt really good like earlier this month feels like it's slipping away now. That's the crux of the problem. And I don't know how to fix that. I never knew.
Today was filled with things that were just inconvenient enough.
It's okay that A-Kon was cancelled this year, I told myself. I'd have my own fun. I'm good at that. Saw Ricky and the homies at his mom's, and kept social distance. Spent money, ate good food. Ended up cleaning and organizing more than I wanted to. That's okay, I'll take my birthday off. Nope, can't leave my coworker unsupervised (my inclination to do so was correct) so I had to come in. That's all right, Grace couldn't make it down this weekend because of work and her car anyway. My mom calls me and then goes to the ER, but is released shortly there after. She seems fine when I visited her in the evening. Jason says she's irritated at my caution because of the pandemic but I really don't want her to suffer as a result of this. I'm trying my best to make it easy and make up for when I have to be more careful at the cost of togetherness, but I guess it doesn't feel like enough sometimes.
Just barely got to see the fun birthday Death Stranding stuff just now. I want that cake someday. Jason got me a dupe cheesecake but it's still delicious. He's going to come home with pizza and I think I'll try to get us to watch Star Wars.
I know why I'm really sad. Because something that felt really good like earlier this month feels like it's slipping away now. That's the crux of the problem. And I don't know how to fix that. I never knew.