do you know what i love?
do you? i love it when other people notice the weight ive lost. its one thing for me to feel my pants all loose and whatnot but its another thing when others notice too. i love walking into jon's work and some of the girls saying "ooooh you lost weight" "you look thinner!" and such. it just brightens my day. i get to a point where i feel like whats the point. i let someone tell me i was fat when i wasnt and i started believing it and because of that i just let myself gain and gain. i was 125 lbs when that started and i got up to 175. 50 lbs because of what someone else said. its rediculous. but it works the other way too, having others acknowledge that ive thinned up makes me want to continue, not so that i look good for them, but i does make me feel good to know that others do notice all my hard work. im finally back to the point where i would wear a bathing suit. woo hoo, thank you ladies at jons work, you have made my week! you know what else i love, when that girl who decided to give me dirty looks at jon's work's xmas party, and then came into MY work and disrespected me there, runs into the back whenever i come in to see jon, because one of the girls who works there told her she better not mess with me cuz i wont take it. haha, i wouldnt go into her work and disrespect her, but if i see her on the street and shes rude, or if she comes into my work again, i wont cut her anymore slack. she is the type of girl to throw out "i will have my daddy's lawyer sue you" at the drop of a hat. no one has ever NOT taken her shit until me. im glad i could help welcome her to the real world.