life was sucky, but i didnt die

May 17, 2005 15:28

okay, so i had a really long weekend cuz i was sick and all. Not much happened during it other than the fight with my dad and the fact that my grandparents left back to mexico. I am just happy that its over and that i am back in school and out of my house, god, what am i going to do over the summer, thats really going to suck. He, oh well, maybe thats why i am dredding graduation, it means having to find new ways to not be home.
---The fight with my dad totally blew, i was so fucking pissed. Here is the situation, i was sitting there watching the tube with jasmin cuz i had a fever and i was feeling lightheaded so i really wasnt going to be moving anywhere soon. So i was watching the clone wars cartoon, and enjoying myself if i might add. Suddenly, my little sister Brianna wakes up and decides that she wants some chocolate milk, so my little sister got her some. She then decided that it was to cold so she announced that she wanted it heated and promptly began crying cuz jasmin wanted to wate till commercials to do it. Jasmin heated it up for her, but she decided to not want it anymore and to just cry as loud and as annoyingly as she could. I called my mom, but she just told me to do whatever she wanted me to do so i just told her to forget it. Then my dad came home, he found her crying and got pissed. We informed him that we hadnt done anything to her and that she was crying cuz she felt like it, then she goes and tells my dad that she wants some fucking chocolate milk. He immeadeatly gets up and is five inches from hitting Jasmin when i yell at him that we did make her chocolate milk and its in the fucking fridge, that Brianna was crying cuz she felt like it and that we had no fault in the matter. He warns me to not yell at him and to not yell at him and i tell him that he isnt going to hit Jasmin just cuz my little sister decides she wants to fucking cry. He yells at me not to yell at him or to tell him what to do and i tell him that i dont give a shit, and that he is not about to hit jasmin just cuz he fucking wants to, we yell some more and i promptly leave. I am shaking with anger when i hop into the car, and i pull out of the drive way. I am so fucking angry that tears just start to flood my eyes and there is no way i can stop them. There i am, on the fucking road crying with a fever, a headache, and barely any voice left. I had never felt so alone, or so shitty in my life. What did i do, there was nothing i could do, i had to suck up my fucking pride and drive back home, damn him to hell. I no longer give a shit. I told my mom what happened, she told me there was nothing she could do about it, i muttered divorce under my breath but i have a feeling she didnt hear it.
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