Velvet Mace can Emo

Sep 20, 2005 15:36

I'm in a pissy mood, so please bear with me.

I have no one to blame but myself. )

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sky_dark September 20 2005, 23:11:52 UTC
*hugs*

I wish I could offer sage advice, but I kind of fall flat. Whatever you need to do, you do it Velvet. We'll support you and be here for you as much as we can.

*smooch*

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velvet_mace September 21 2005, 03:26:08 UTC
Thank you... I needed the hug.

You see I can emo like the best of them.

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sky_dark September 21 2005, 03:38:20 UTC
Emo has its place. ARGH, we need to live closer, we'd so get on each others nerves, but still be best buds XD

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lunar_wolf September 20 2005, 23:20:30 UTC
Sometimes you can get addicted to a perfectly good, healthy thing. Moderation in all things, I suppose ( ... )

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velvet_mace September 21 2005, 03:26:57 UTC
You are so right. Moderation is the key. I need to cut back a bit. That's all. Maybe restrict myself to after the kids go to bed or something... but DAMN it's gonna be hard.

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dragontrap September 20 2005, 23:34:49 UTC
*hugs*

I know how the whole "IS it me? Did I do something? Why won't anyone tell me?" thing works. People think they are being nice by NOT telling you what the hell you did wrong (And in the case of the one person, she needs to get a life and quit being nice to your face when she acts like that behind your back)

Like Sky said, whatever you decide to do, you do have people behind you ^^

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velvet_mace September 21 2005, 03:29:14 UTC
To be fair, I think sometimes even THEY don't know why I rub them the wrong way. Not everyone analyses their feelings and studies other peoples behavior the way I do. For me if I have a feeling about something my automatic reaction is to hunt down why and add it to my ever growing mind map of human nature, but most people just "go with the flow."

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dragontrap September 21 2005, 03:34:15 UTC
I can see your point about that. It is true a lot of people are "go with the flow" types (I tend to work that way most of the time), but you do have people who do the same thing you do. I'm just saying that I've found that most of the time people don't say anything becuase they think "it will hurt your feelings", and let it build up until it explodes and gets out of hand.

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velvet_mace September 21 2005, 03:44:22 UTC
Man I wish people would just hurt my feelings. My feelings are surprisingly hard to hurt with words -- but actions KILL me.

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mikkeneko September 21 2005, 00:03:06 UTC
Man, I really know what you're feeling with that invisible wall. ._. Up until this spring I had a group of friends, schoolmates, who I hung out with a lot. We were in several of the same classes, had a lot of the same interests, up to and including anime and even a bit of yaoi, but for some reason there was just... no clicking. I was never included. They never bothered to inform me of events, or parties, or trips into town, or anything. I did my damnedest to cultivate a relationship with them, trying to be friendly and useful and offer rides or contributions or what have you, but it just... never happened ( ... )

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velvet_mace September 21 2005, 03:30:39 UTC
I wish you lived near me. I truly do, because I have a feeling we'd be such good friends.

I've had people I've clicked with, and man it was awesome, but it's been a long time since I've found one. I try so hard to be likable, but it's a chemistry thing, I think. Sigh.

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tavella September 21 2005, 05:59:37 UTC
Oooh, yes, I hate that, the 'I want to be friends with them more than they want to be friends with me' thing. I'm lucky in that I've clicked with a nice tight group of people now, but I've been in that position.

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stickmarionette September 21 2005, 00:31:00 UTC
*seconds Mikke* Don't worry so much about the twits ^^

It's hard to balance RL and fandom sometimes, but (and this is coming from someone who abandons RL for fandom regularly) from experience moderation is probably the best thing to do. I have become more distant with RL friends because of drastic increases in online activity, and it's a very bitter thing to happen. While we would all love more fics from you, I think your family and friends deserve you just as much, if not more than we do ^__^

Just my two cents, hopefully it helps, even if just a little.

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velvet_mace September 21 2005, 03:33:33 UTC
I wouldn't worry about the twits if the world weren't made up of 99.9% "twits." after a while though you have to question whether the problem isn't them, but you.

Moderation. Yes. Moderation is key. I've just got to get my obsessive nature in mind. Do you guys realize I've written like several NOVELS worth of fanfic in the last few months? ALL of it FMA? Geez... what does that say about my level of obsessiveness. I mean this is a freaking HOBBY and it isn't even my original idea.

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stickmarionette September 21 2005, 09:24:18 UTC
*nod* I do know what you mean by that, being one of those people who just sucks at making friends ^^ Still, you're not the problem, because out there is a group of people with whom the invisible wall will go away. Those who exclude old friends so easily...well, they are twits, there's no other word for it XDDDD

Your output is pretty impressive. It's hard to control an obsession, speaking from personal experience, so I don't know what I can do to help, except to say 'good luck!' ^^

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