SGA WIP: Our Own Reality. 12/?. John/Rodney.
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Just a short scene today. However, if you need something to read, head on over to SGA Big Bang. That should hold you over for a while ;) Among other things, you'll find my own fic New Shores and the wonderful artwork done for it.
This is set at the beginning of season 5. The fic will be John/Rodney, NC-17, and include a warning for ( skip) behavior that is technically sexual harassment (though I hope you'll understand John).
Our Own Reality 12/?
Rodney's reaction to the kiss (or what surrounded it) had been interesting. John could sense curiosity in him and nervousness. He wasn't sure how to interpret either.
Rodney hadn't asked for any details, but at lunch the next day, he'd been fidgety and looked at John as if he wanted to say something about it.
John had been tempted to tell him he could act normal around John, but it was probably too early to joke around about that. Plus there was that nervousness which made John curious.
He could understand that Rodney would be interested to hear in an alternative life of his, even though it had only been a simulation. He'd also been curious about what John would tell him about his trip into the future, but he'd accepted when John had elected to only tell them what was essential and teased him about the rest.
This time John had the feeling Rodney hadn't quite worked up the courage to ask, which was unusual for Rodney in general and in particular in regards to John.
Of course, the matter was different in this case. There had never been any doubt that what had happened in the year in the machine was private. And in his trip to the future, he'd been missing and everything that had happened had been about the others.
Finally, there was the matter of the nature of their relationship. John knew that Rodney's curiosity was probably just general, a glimpse into a life he didn't live and couldn't even imagine. However, it still was a romantic relationship with another man, with John, that he was so curious about and John couldn't help noticing that Rodney's reactions so far hadn't been that of disgust or mocking or shock.
And the fact that he hesitated to ask John meant that he cared about John's answer-more than could be explained by mere curiosity.
Or he simply knew that John would say no.
John had no problem with sharing the missions. It was valuable, and his team enjoyed it. His relationship with Rodney was still private, however, even if he now tried to look at it not as something that had actually happened to him, but rather something that he'd witnessed. Which was really quite accurate if you thought about it.
But John had enjoyed what he'd witnessed. He'd believed in it, he'd lived it as if it was his own life. And they all knew that. So showing it to others would be showing them his deepest wishes and hopes, and he wasn't ready to do that, especially since they wouldn't come true. Probably.
The thing was ... Rodney was interested to hear about his romantic and sexual relationship with John. John knew that there were good explanations for it that didn't mean anything, but his mind just wouldn't let go of the fact and also the way he'd looked when they'd watched the mission. Amazement was one way John would describe it.
And that was a mile away from the pained expression John remembered from when he had first woken up. Back then Rodney didn't have to speak to say, "If there was any way at all in the world, I'd be with you. But there isn't." It had been written all over his body in that moment.
But what John saw right now wasn't the fascination with something that was entirely absurd and unrealistic. It was genuine interest and while John was under no illusion that Rodney had somehow fallen in love with him-he didn't think Rodney would be shy about letting him know-John wasn't quite as certain as before that it couldn't happen under any circumstances ever.
Just a short scene today. However, if you need something to read, head on over to SGA Big Bang. That should hold you over for a while ;) Among other things, you'll find my own fic New Shores and the wonderful artwork done for it.
This is set at the beginning of season 5. The fic will be John/Rodney, NC-17, and include a warning for ( skip) behavior that is technically sexual harassment (though I hope you'll understand John).
Our Own Reality 12/?
Rodney's reaction to the kiss (or what surrounded it) had been interesting. John could sense curiosity in him and nervousness. He wasn't sure how to interpret either.
Rodney hadn't asked for any details, but at lunch the next day, he'd been fidgety and looked at John as if he wanted to say something about it.
John had been tempted to tell him he could act normal around John, but it was probably too early to joke around about that. Plus there was that nervousness which made John curious.
He could understand that Rodney would be interested to hear in an alternative life of his, even though it had only been a simulation. He'd also been curious about what John would tell him about his trip into the future, but he'd accepted when John had elected to only tell them what was essential and teased him about the rest.
This time John had the feeling Rodney hadn't quite worked up the courage to ask, which was unusual for Rodney in general and in particular in regards to John.
Of course, the matter was different in this case. There had never been any doubt that what had happened in the year in the machine was private. And in his trip to the future, he'd been missing and everything that had happened had been about the others.
Finally, there was the matter of the nature of their relationship. John knew that Rodney's curiosity was probably just general, a glimpse into a life he didn't live and couldn't even imagine. However, it still was a romantic relationship with another man, with John, that he was so curious about and John couldn't help noticing that Rodney's reactions so far hadn't been that of disgust or mocking or shock.
And the fact that he hesitated to ask John meant that he cared about John's answer-more than could be explained by mere curiosity.
Or he simply knew that John would say no.
John had no problem with sharing the missions. It was valuable, and his team enjoyed it. His relationship with Rodney was still private, however, even if he now tried to look at it not as something that had actually happened to him, but rather something that he'd witnessed. Which was really quite accurate if you thought about it.
But John had enjoyed what he'd witnessed. He'd believed in it, he'd lived it as if it was his own life. And they all knew that. So showing it to others would be showing them his deepest wishes and hopes, and he wasn't ready to do that, especially since they wouldn't come true. Probably.
The thing was ... Rodney was interested to hear about his romantic and sexual relationship with John. John knew that there were good explanations for it that didn't mean anything, but his mind just wouldn't let go of the fact and also the way he'd looked when they'd watched the mission. Amazement was one way John would describe it.
And that was a mile away from the pained expression John remembered from when he had first woken up. Back then Rodney didn't have to speak to say, "If there was any way at all in the world, I'd be with you. But there isn't." It had been written all over his body in that moment.
But what John saw right now wasn't the fascination with something that was entirely absurd and unrealistic. It was genuine interest and while John was under no illusion that Rodney had somehow fallen in love with him-he didn't think Rodney would be shy about letting him know-John wasn't quite as certain as before that it couldn't happen under any circumstances ever.