"sufficient for the day are the problems thereof"
M -
i don't know how to feel motivated though. the rest of my life seems like a black hole. it's going to go on for so long
E -
that's a good thing
that long time thing
M -
maybe
depends how it plays out
E -
make it what you want it to be
it's yours
M -
i mean on an abstract level i want to be loved and be happy, but concretely i don't know what that looks like so i don't really know what it would take to get it
That's a key problem for me. I generally feel uneasy and unhappy about my life right now but how do I change it? The loneliness is a big issue right now. I can't just make someone love me or enjoy my company or want to spend time with me, so how I fix it? I don't want to have to change myself because I can't even imagine how much energy that would require. If the way I am isn't good enough for people to like me, there's no point in waiting out the rest of my life in this lonely state. I value and appreciate all the friendships I have, but at the end of the day these people all have their favourite, most loved people to go home to, and I have no one.
i don't know how to feel motivated though. the rest of my life seems like a black hole. it's going to go on for so long
E -
that's a good thing
that long time thing
M -
maybe
depends how it plays out
E -
make it what you want it to be
it's yours
M -
i mean on an abstract level i want to be loved and be happy, but concretely i don't know what that looks like so i don't really know what it would take to get it
That's a key problem for me. I generally feel uneasy and unhappy about my life right now but how do I change it? The loneliness is a big issue right now. I can't just make someone love me or enjoy my company or want to spend time with me, so how I fix it? I don't want to have to change myself because I can't even imagine how much energy that would require. If the way I am isn't good enough for people to like me, there's no point in waiting out the rest of my life in this lonely state. I value and appreciate all the friendships I have, but at the end of the day these people all have their favourite, most loved people to go home to, and I have no one.