Is there a point?
Answer, NO!
I am tired of putting my heart on the line and for the only thing to come of it is pain and agony. I am at a very pointless era of my life, I am cold and tired of spending my nights and every waking morning alone. I know a lot of people do, but I know what kills me. I just want to give up in some way or another, and I know I'm passing the breaking point to God knows what. I have drank the past couple of nights, it does no good, but hell, nothing I do does any good any longer anyhow. It doesn't matter if I try to do things right or not, it always ends up the same. I offer my heart only to watch it bleed itself out into nothingness, and to ne received by no one. I just wish that it all would just go away and let me wither away without anyone giving a damn. But that's the thing, I do care, and I want to care for someone, and to have those feelings returned to me. It isn't meant to be in any case I suppose. I mean fuck, I screwed up a marriage, a realationship with the closest thing I will ever find to true love, and now I have offered myself to another. I am trying and am now tired of trying.
I am tired of putting my heart on the line and for the only thing to come of it is pain and agony. I am at a very pointless era of my life, I am cold and tired of spending my nights and every waking morning alone. I know a lot of people do, but I know what kills me. I just want to give up in some way or another, and I know I'm passing the breaking point to God knows what. I have drank the past couple of nights, it does no good, but hell, nothing I do does any good any longer anyhow. It doesn't matter if I try to do things right or not, it always ends up the same. I offer my heart only to watch it bleed itself out into nothingness, and to ne received by no one. I just wish that it all would just go away and let me wither away without anyone giving a damn. But that's the thing, I do care, and I want to care for someone, and to have those feelings returned to me. It isn't meant to be in any case I suppose. I mean fuck, I screwed up a marriage, a realationship with the closest thing I will ever find to true love, and now I have offered myself to another. I am trying and am now tired of trying.