Ok, so I hate my job, mainly the job owner person is irritaing me greatly. It's getting old of getting wages like if I'm 18 and can bumb money off mom and dad. That don't wash, yo. I have to talk with her tonight or wednesday about the money and hours. Other than that, Beth went home, she was very confident, but soon was shaken from being back in ( Read more... )

Well, the try-outs didn't work out. And the next guy didn't work out as well. It's spring break now and I'm only working my regular hours, though I told corri I could work more hours this week and would appreciate it if I could have more hours. But she doesn't listen, nothing new really ( Read more... )

As of this moment, I do not have any money, nor has Aid come in to help out, or allow me to get the books I need. Aid should be in Friday, if all goes well ( Read more... )

I'm alive and I see some format stuff has changed, weird. Well, I'm in school now and 4 weeks in, I still haven't gotten school money and am still without books. Makes it a bit hard to do the work. I started school to be able to survive and also I felt it was time to further myself and wipr some dust off my brain and push it's limits. I'm wanting ( Read more... )

Went to Rebel Heart, just to check things out and took Zoroaster with me. Everyone loved them. I stopped by Mels to see Braden on the way there, it was his 1st birthday. He was asleep and his little butt was just up in the air, so cute. That was the highlight of my day, just to see them ( Read more... )

Talked with Jamie for the first time in weeks, something more than just leaving a message. Called her back this evening, but she didn't answer, so I just figure she was asleep. Not sure if I will be able to go see her in October, she might have to be out of town. Sucks though, but perhaps things will get better in the future and both of our fears ( Read more... )

Things are alright. My phone is off again, I got hired on through Honda and started a new position this morning. I got things straight with Jamie and things are ok now. I did freak her out with getting her something for her birthday, which I had no idea she would be like that. Nothing I can do now, but I think it's going to be alright, we're taking ( Read more... )

Signed the divorce papers on my birthday, then met Mom for lunch. Now there's 2 folks I'd rather not spend my birthday with. Just got off work, at my new job at the Honda plant, and I'm doing laundry (at Beth and Calebs) I still get a sinking feeling at times being here and I wish I wouldn't. I think of Beth and the times we had. That's all I'll ( Read more... )

New meds and talks with God. I hope Beth is ok after having her teeth pulled. I want to practice, but haven't talked with Caleb, I know he's had a lot going on in his life and family. I missed work yesterday cause the Paxil is hitting hard and is making me sick. I have to work tonight, and next week put more effort into finding work.

Nothing more from Carol as of yet. Beth is still in FL. Went to Social Security today to get paperwork started for disability. Went looking for jobs. Fought tears all day, stressed at the smallest things at work, drawing away from "friends" a.k.a. drug fiends. I am a diatribe of one and building my tribe, my visions and my way to survive. Today ( Read more... )