who the fuck am I again?
Tuesday, so hooters is later tonight, I guess. ::sigh:: Just when things seem to get better, you suddenly realize that you are still you and the problems are still there, just waiting patiently until you stop being busy. It's been close to 2 weeks since BYM has practiced and that is my fault, but we have a show in 2 weeks and I want to have at least one of the new songs down. I have 3 more waitinbg right behind that one.
I know we still hurt and in some ways we are still hurting each other. I know she told me that she wasn't ready to see me with another, and I don't want to think of her with another, though I know differently. I still love her and know that will not change within the near future. I cried last night for the first time in over a week. I kneeled with roseries and prayed for quite a while, prayed like I haven't in a very long time. I prayed for forgiveness of being the monster I am and not caring for her like I should have, and for my recent actions that I know have hurt her. I only meant to care and love, but those days are gone, "and the winner Loses All."
I knew the DVD would show up ::smiles::
I know we still hurt and in some ways we are still hurting each other. I know she told me that she wasn't ready to see me with another, and I don't want to think of her with another, though I know differently. I still love her and know that will not change within the near future. I cried last night for the first time in over a week. I kneeled with roseries and prayed for quite a while, prayed like I haven't in a very long time. I prayed for forgiveness of being the monster I am and not caring for her like I should have, and for my recent actions that I know have hurt her. I only meant to care and love, but those days are gone, "and the winner Loses All."
I knew the DVD would show up ::smiles::