I was about to put Dr. Graham on my list of resume recommendations only to find out that he died in late March.  I'm not shocked; I had written about this after the department found out.  It's still so weird.  You imagine conversations with people who die.  Dr. Graham and I talked about how I hated Gauss ... only because I didn't understand his ( Read more... )

It's interesting working with death.  I'm living with my sister until I find a place here and she's a Hospice nurse.  One day she had to swing by the hospital to tell a patient's family that admitting their father would not be covered by Medicare, and I joked with her that a 'dark cloud of death' followed her into the place.  Her name tag includes ( Read more... )

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Something about Gorecki's Symphony of Sorrowful Songs ... he composed death.  This guy uses that symphony in a dark film about a hit man, Mel Gibson used it in The Passion when Jesus carries his crucifiction, and HBO used it in Wit when Professor Bearing faces terminal cancer.  I'd like it played during my funeral as the soundtrack to a montage of ( Read more... )

I've been looking into some theories for systematizing knowledge and bumped into a bad coincidence between this line of research and what has recently happened to those who persue it.  They commit suicide.  About this time of the year too.  Hehe.  Don't worry about me; I was outraged that two of the leading researchers chose to end their lives, but ( Read more... )

I 'luv this guy!  Can I be the next reincarnate?  :)
... it is important to develop an awareness of death and to become familiar with ways to cope with the dissolution of the mind right from the time of our youth.  We can do this by rehearsing it through visualization.  Then, instead of being afraid of death, we may feel a sense of excitement about ( Read more... )

I am Justin.

I was a man.  I am a male.  I am bisexual.  I was asexual.  I was depressed.  I am bipolar.  I am a student.  I  was employed.  I was a Christian.  I am agnostic.  I am white.  I was blind.  I was naive.  I am cynical.  I am indifferent.  I was loved.

For some time now I have sought a unifying theory; a theory that would comfort me ( Read more... )

This one is for Tadlock: --> techno mix of plane crash test dummies <-- Dark Humor. (*Not for everyone).  Here's the story ...

NASA and the FAA tested some anti-flammable jet fuel in the 1980's and it blew up in their face! -- quite literally.  How ironic. *evil grin*  What I find even more amusing is how the plane wasn't suppose to crash this way:


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The gang finally stepped out to the bar. Logan slipped into my bedroom and assured me they would leave. Silence is restful and calms my nerves ( Read more... )

This is an edited IM conversation Adam and I started a few hours ago and just finished, and then only because I put him to sleep. Oopsy! I am persistent :) In it, I drag him (and you) through my most recent experience with solitude and my thoughts about death. I edited obvious misspellings, inserted bold subtopics that create a storyline, and ( Read more... )