Why can't I be capable of being in 2 places at once?
I can't believe this. I have a major conflict coming up at the end of April. Being a musician sucks sometimes cause you have to choose between one gig or another. I mean, it wouldn't be so bad if it were strictly business, particularly if I was the boss of one, but when I am a member of a handful of groups, things start to get sticky. I love being part of various groups, orchestra, quartets, mariachi, church. The bad thing is that no matter what kind of group you are in, performances of any kind will without a doubt be on a weekend. People get married on weekends. Mass is on sundays (and sat. night vigils which I pretty much never play for anyway) and mariachis are wanted for restaraunts, parties, and mass. This is one reason I need a car simply for weekends. I love it when I have gigs for all ensembles I am in. Its fun, and good money. I often wish it happened more often. Except when I have personal gigs conflicting with regular ensemble performances. Because I can't be in two places at once.
I have a wedding Ive been asked to play at on saturday April 25. As soon as this couple got engaged they asked me to play for their wedding. Not just me, but to be one of their musicians. Its a wedding, and they let me know it would be important to them I play. Last night. Jessica told me we have a concert to play for on that same day. She was talking about it, I knew I had to be there- we have to play a one hour set, I found out about it, she didn't tell me. Normally I don't care how I am told. It was late and at the moment I didn't realize there was a conflict. It always takes me time to realize there's a conflict. I wish she'd call me and let me know ahead of time, and tell me to make sure I was available. Except there's nothing I could do cause there already is a conflict. Its not like I'm going out of town for fun.
She is already upset with me because I've missed too many days. Its my job, I have a commitment to the group, they need reliable musicians, we practice our vocal parts and I need to be there for that cause we don't rehearse with substitutes. I get it. Its important. That's why I need a damn car. But to be honest, I missed only one weekend just for fun and that was because it was my 21st birthday. Any other time it is because I have a concert, I have a recital, or I have to go home for the weekend, or spring break- that was the only other "recreational" day. My first year I went home more often. This year besides spring break, I had a specific purpose when I went home.
They give me crap because I miss so much. Sometimes I feel like I'm being treated like a little kid and like they think I'm irresponsible and not taking things seriously. But I do take it seriously, I take everything I do with music seriously and sometimes it sends me in different directions and I have to make a choice. My problem is, I don't know what choice to make. Everything is weighed equal to me. Unless its school performances, I have no choice that does come first. Then SIC, I gotta meet the requirements to use the violin I have. I understand Jessica's position. The hassle in finding musicians to fill in. I understand that I really do. Dependable and reliable musicians are important. But I am dependable, I give up a lot too to play mariachi but because I want to. Granted, I haven't given up half the things Jessica had to, but my situation is different. The choices I have to make are different. And though I enjoy every ensemble I am a part of, and its of a recreational benefit to me, it is also a time consuming sacrifice. I do not dedicate 100% of my time to one ensemble or type of music, and would never want to. None of the groups I am a part of even require that much time of me. That is why I can do a variety of things. Besides church and mariachi are the only ensembles outside of school, and I haven't played at churches in months- I've pretty much taken a break from that.
Anyway, I know I will forever regret it if I don't play at this wedding. I just don't want to jeapordize an ensemble that is important to me.
I have a wedding Ive been asked to play at on saturday April 25. As soon as this couple got engaged they asked me to play for their wedding. Not just me, but to be one of their musicians. Its a wedding, and they let me know it would be important to them I play. Last night. Jessica told me we have a concert to play for on that same day. She was talking about it, I knew I had to be there- we have to play a one hour set, I found out about it, she didn't tell me. Normally I don't care how I am told. It was late and at the moment I didn't realize there was a conflict. It always takes me time to realize there's a conflict. I wish she'd call me and let me know ahead of time, and tell me to make sure I was available. Except there's nothing I could do cause there already is a conflict. Its not like I'm going out of town for fun.
She is already upset with me because I've missed too many days. Its my job, I have a commitment to the group, they need reliable musicians, we practice our vocal parts and I need to be there for that cause we don't rehearse with substitutes. I get it. Its important. That's why I need a damn car. But to be honest, I missed only one weekend just for fun and that was because it was my 21st birthday. Any other time it is because I have a concert, I have a recital, or I have to go home for the weekend, or spring break- that was the only other "recreational" day. My first year I went home more often. This year besides spring break, I had a specific purpose when I went home.
They give me crap because I miss so much. Sometimes I feel like I'm being treated like a little kid and like they think I'm irresponsible and not taking things seriously. But I do take it seriously, I take everything I do with music seriously and sometimes it sends me in different directions and I have to make a choice. My problem is, I don't know what choice to make. Everything is weighed equal to me. Unless its school performances, I have no choice that does come first. Then SIC, I gotta meet the requirements to use the violin I have. I understand Jessica's position. The hassle in finding musicians to fill in. I understand that I really do. Dependable and reliable musicians are important. But I am dependable, I give up a lot too to play mariachi but because I want to. Granted, I haven't given up half the things Jessica had to, but my situation is different. The choices I have to make are different. And though I enjoy every ensemble I am a part of, and its of a recreational benefit to me, it is also a time consuming sacrifice. I do not dedicate 100% of my time to one ensemble or type of music, and would never want to. None of the groups I am a part of even require that much time of me. That is why I can do a variety of things. Besides church and mariachi are the only ensembles outside of school, and I haven't played at churches in months- I've pretty much taken a break from that.
Anyway, I know I will forever regret it if I don't play at this wedding. I just don't want to jeapordize an ensemble that is important to me.