wassup
hey everyone im sry i havent updated in awhile. ive been tryin to keep real busy so that i dont think about steve. yea hes the main reason y imwriting in this right now. i saw jared was at school today so im assuming that theyre back from AZ. so he'll prolly be in school tomorrow. that will be real hard for me becuz we have the same lunch tomorrow. yea im kinda curious to see if he really brought me back sumthing. i told him not to but h esaid he was going to. god its times like these where it kinda feels like were stil going out. only i ahvent talked to him for a week and a half. yea these past few days have been really easy but hard for me. its easier not seieng him but its still hard. yea on sat i made a steve box i put almost everything he gave me into a box and put it away. it hurts way too much to look at it everyday. i was thinking aboutit the other day and i would give n e thing for him to come back from AZ and realize that he misses me and that he really does love me but i kno that thats not going to happen. as much as i want it to i kno its not. yea also on sat i was cleanin my room and i found one of the shirts that i stole from him. so at sumtime in thenear future im gunna ask him if he wants it back. cuz if not than im just gunna put it in the box with the rest of the stuff. god i miss him so much. its been over a week now and i thought things would feel better but they dont. i kinda wish i could just forget about him altogether it would be a lot easier especially with everything thats going thru my mind. wat eva i guess im just babbling and no one wants to hear me complain n e more. i dont blame you hes all i ever talk about. im stil not used to calling him my ex-bf you dont kno how many times ive said my bf. then i realize wat i did and i wanna cry. oh well. im kinda tired and still sore form the workout for softball next week so im prolly gunna just go in my room and chillax. ill update tom cuz i might b going to the library after tutoring tomorrow.
~*~Bean~*~
~*~Bean~*~