life sux...

[vanilafrijoles9]

yea im back again yea today had been one of the hardest days of my life. first steve breaks up with me nd my day continues to get worse from there. nick was being an ass for like the hwole morning until i told him to fuck off basically and then i told him i was so that i snapped and then i told him y i snapped and he understood and left me alone thank buddha. but yea then we got progress reports and i got all proficients. also my tutoring job jipped me a days pay. to top it all off we listened to this ode to a guitar which sounded like it was abuot two people in love and i wanted to cry. also it seemed like everywhere i turned today steve was right there whether it was outside during the fire on the third floor or whether it be in the hallway or leaving school finally thinkking im out w/o seeing him again and guess who comes down the stairs right next to me and says hi to me yup you got it steve.i got on the bus and poof asked me if i was ok cuz it looked like i was gunna punch sumone andi told her that i wante dto cry and she was like oh sry. so yea then we went to the bowling alley cuz poof had to prebowl cuz shes got to get her award for miss ten pin tomorrow wqhich was fun cuz dad won me a uple carebear out of those vending machines. then mom came to the bowling alley and she kidnapped me and took me out meanwhile we bonded and i actually told her about me and steve and she didnt really say n e thing except that were only teenagers and that spring will start soon and it can be a whole new beginning for me and the she to me out to dinner at salano's and we had grinders. it was nice to bond with mom i miss doing stuff like that. yea mike lezinski told me i need to go shopping toma nd get my mind of steve so i asked mom when we were out and shes like no you me and poof will go shopping after her thingy so yea im sry mikey. but yea just when i was starting to be happy we come home and come to find out who called... steve is that your guess well yea your right. so i called him back and someone was online cuz it went straight to the machine and so i left a meesage. he didnt call back so i called back in about an hour and a half but kayla(aka midget) told me he was sleeping. i highly doubt that but w/e if he really wants to avoid me than w/e. i havent really cried cried at all today and im seriously about to like burst into tears.id go in my room and cry but poof is in there sleeping. but no one else is home so i guess its ok to cry. god it hurts so much. how could he tell me when we got back together be4 that he loves me so much and cant live w/o me and missed me and talkingto me so much and then and tell me he doesnt feel the same way n e more. god i havent felt this bad in such a long time. i never thought id be this depressed ever again in my life but i guess i was wrong. oh well im not really in the mood to talk to anyone but i have to restart my comp so i can go back on aim to have sum of my friends cheer me up maybe. so ill update prolly tom night cuz me and poof will be home alone tom night and were planning like a girls movie night just the two of us.

your really depressed friend....

~*~Bean~*~

ps im sry if i sound all self pity me but give me a day and ill be a better i promise.i hope