Assumptions
Funny thing they are. They can either be bad or something you have to do when you're trying to trust someone. I've already talked about how she hid the fact that she saw this Austin fucking cocksucker. But I don't know why she wouldn't have told me they talked about "getting together" when he got back from Fayetteville. No solid plans were made though. I'm sure that'd be what she said. "We hadn't made any solid plans." Yeah, would she have told me if I hadn't of thought to ask? I doubt it. I have to assume some things here. I have to assume this was another meeting so their kids could play or something she was hiding from me for a more nefarious reason. I have to assume that she's just trying to be friends with this guy or there is something else going on behind my back. And as fractured as I've been lately I see it both ways. She told me once, when I asked her if sex had to be involved in these other relationships, that when she likes someone if she spends enough time with them and those feelings grow it's going to be inevitable that she'll want to have sex with them. So, in other words, if she spends enough time with this guy she's going to want to have sex with him. And would she be honest and forthcoming with me if she did. Would she own up to it and let me walk away? Or would she lie to me and keep doing it behind my back? These are assumptions one has to make when trying to trust someone. She's hidden stuff from me now for 3 times as far as I see it. And I told her that she should live her life however she think is best and I'll act accordingly. Right now, as furious as I feel, she'd lose me. Forever. She may even still if she keeps hiding things from me. Usually people only hide things when there is something that they know will piss the other off. Just tell me the truth! Just be upfront with me! JUST FUCKING TELL ME!! What's so hard about that? What's so hard about just letting me know they had talked about "getting together", whatever in the ever loving fuck that means, when he got back? She told me that she wasn't talking to him much, because she wasn't going to if she wasn't going to act on anything with him. Welllllll if that's the fucking case why are there talks about "getting together" out there? Why is any of that going on? If she isn't going to talk to him, I suppose she's being semantic as fuck about texting, why is she trying to spend time with him? Or what if I ask to see her? And she has these plans to "get together"? Is she going to just say, "I've got plans today." instead of telling me what the actual fuck is going on? Yes? No? All things I have to assume. I'm drunk. And furious right now. And it's not good to keep talking to her. I think I need to just take my pills and go to sleep. Whatever the fuck sleep is.