This might be brought about by my recent sickness, but...
I hate having feelings for a guy...especially when he's a friend.
Sure, the time we spend together talking and having fun is enjoyable, and imagining what it might be like to be together makes me smile more often than not.
But when I remember that he's my friend...when I try to tell myself that it wouldn't work, and that we won't ever be together, won't be more than friends...When I try to be realistic...it really hurts.
Why do I do this to myself? This isn't the first time I've fallen for a guy who was my friend. And I don't want to tell him, because it will just end up the same way it did with all my other guy friends I had crushes on. He won't feel the same way, and I just...I just don't want to put myself through that again. It's happened to me so many times already, and I just...I can't.
I'm just going to say I'm unlovable and quit, okay?
Sure, the time we spend together talking and having fun is enjoyable, and imagining what it might be like to be together makes me smile more often than not.
But when I remember that he's my friend...when I try to tell myself that it wouldn't work, and that we won't ever be together, won't be more than friends...When I try to be realistic...it really hurts.
Why do I do this to myself? This isn't the first time I've fallen for a guy who was my friend. And I don't want to tell him, because it will just end up the same way it did with all my other guy friends I had crushes on. He won't feel the same way, and I just...I just don't want to put myself through that again. It's happened to me so many times already, and I just...I can't.
I'm just going to say I'm unlovable and quit, okay?