Dec 09, 2012 00:19
I hate having feelings for a guy...especially when he's a friend.
Sure, the time we spend together talking and having fun is enjoyable, and imagining what it might be like to be together makes me smile more often than not.
But when I remember that he's my friend...when I try to tell myself that it wouldn't work, and that we won't ever be together, won't be more than friends...When I try to be realistic...it really hurts.
Why do I do this to myself? This isn't the first time I've fallen for a guy who was my friend. And I don't want to tell him, because it will just end up the same way it did with all my other guy friends I had crushes on. He won't feel the same way, and I just...I just don't want to put myself through that again. It's happened to me so many times already, and I just...I can't.
I'm just going to say I'm unlovable and quit, okay?
rant,
love problems,
real life