Here We Go Again

[urhuckleberry]

I can remember those past weeks when I would admire you at close range, yet speak no words. The attraction was there and it reamined silent and did not voice it's opinion. Our friends of course stepped in to try out their match-making skills. I guess it worked. A few days pass and it seems as my schedule has been filled with plans with you. I have not acted this way in a while. I am so shy around you. The cute little signs occurr, eye glances and slight touches. That night you took my hand and my heart raced. I thought my stomach was in my throught. Why does this happen? After today, I do not know what I would say to someone if they were to ask, "What is going on between you two?". I know what is happening, then again everyone wants to put some lable on it. Do not get me wrong- lables do get me too. For some reason I think it is more clear that way. I know that this is not just nothing, or atleast I pray that it is not. I do not know where it is going or how long it will last. I can have my hopes and thoughts though. This is another time when I do not know what is going on. I cannot plan my next step. All that can happen is what will at certain times and places. Not having to strategize is calming. For once this does not bother me. I just know that you care and like me more than I thought. It is funny how God will put two people from the same background and experiences in the other's path so that they might meet.

~Another night without food. Cook it yourself she tells me. Well, I would if she only spent her money on groceries. Provide for yourself she says.~