Taking My Own Advice

[urhuckleberry]

Today was a typical Monday. I basically sat around the house enjoying my yet another day off from anything to do. An old friend talked to me today about how they had just ended a long while relationship. The other person decided that they just did not love them. They told me that they had basically lied to themself to make therself think that they were being loved. I gave them the only advice I knew to give. It is sort of funny because I find that I, myself used to be in the same situation. After a string of unsuccessful relationships, I simply gave up hope. I convinced myself that when it came to finding someone of the opposite sex to be closer with- I only lied to myself to make myself believe that they truly did love me. Now sometimes I hate that word- love. Such a big fuss over one word. I soon came to find that I only had this huge void that I was trying to fill. What did I do? I took about five leaps back. I stepped away from the dating seen for a while. I had to fill my void with God and other things, otherwise it would continue to happen. I would be on the right track for a while, then when I would think God wanted me to be with someone- I jumped in. It was as if I thought God's plan just needed a nudge. Little did I know it was not God's plan. I gave them that exact advice. I do not know if they will take it or not. It always helps to see how far you have come and how many things are going good for you that do not involve that one thing you think you need. Maybe not now, but later on you will realize you were better off without it.

I saw him tonight. Out of all places to see someone, Wal-Mart. I was totally shocked. I had done nothing all day, so I was in sweats and a tank- no makeup. It was all good though. I have plans with him tomorrow night, and the rest of the family. I have not had a chance to talk to him about all of this. I feel like calling him so, I might. In this though I have to take my own advice. Go slow, no need to rush.