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My own mental instability has caused me to hurt Karin, the love of my life.
My mind has felt anxious randomly. It feels the need to act NOW and to drag those around me, with me.
I must apologize, for I have done it to many a friend.
I guess the pressure from my brother was contagious and it made me act this way towards others, when I should just back the fuck off and let people do what they will and be tolerant. I should not want to control my babies life. I have only the best intentions but I can only think of CONTROLLING suggestions that are extreme and ask too much. I have now caused her to think of suicide, and my heart sinks just thinking about it. I wish I could hug her and comfort her like I once did. I feel horrible.
I wish I was rich and could take care of everything. God I hope Karin stays with me. Or no, that is selfish, I hope she finds someone far more superior to me. alright thats all i can type, I feel that my head is going to explode. O_0 information overload topped off with mental and emotional disruption is not a good combination of brain activity.
even tried singing to her to cheer her up after my fucked up convo, god i am a fucking idiot.. lol.
My mind has felt anxious randomly. It feels the need to act NOW and to drag those around me, with me.
I must apologize, for I have done it to many a friend.
I guess the pressure from my brother was contagious and it made me act this way towards others, when I should just back the fuck off and let people do what they will and be tolerant. I should not want to control my babies life. I have only the best intentions but I can only think of CONTROLLING suggestions that are extreme and ask too much. I have now caused her to think of suicide, and my heart sinks just thinking about it. I wish I could hug her and comfort her like I once did. I feel horrible.
I wish I was rich and could take care of everything. God I hope Karin stays with me. Or no, that is selfish, I hope she finds someone far more superior to me. alright thats all i can type, I feel that my head is going to explode. O_0 information overload topped off with mental and emotional disruption is not a good combination of brain activity.
even tried singing to her to cheer her up after my fucked up convo, god i am a fucking idiot.. lol.