lately
I've been at a loss of myself.
I don't feel the same. I made a vid for karin.
But i fluctuate between liking it and not giving a shit. Lately i've been so fucking bi-polar
the smallest things are botherhing me.
I feel constatnly irritated by everything i touch including my clothes or even if i'm naked. My body is sore.
I sweat randomly.
my heart starts randomly racing and randomly just wants to give up on life.
I don't know what's going on and its affecting the people around me.
I'm afraid karin won't beable to handle this stage of me and leave me.
I keep making small mistakes that make me wanna kill myself. I was hitting myself but i stopped cause it makes karin sad. All i do is bother her make her sad or mad now a days.
I feel she is going to tire of me quick and leave me. I feel so sad thinking about it. What the fuck is going on in my head. I think the whole not seeing karin in person as much is killing me. I get so manic-depressive. Randomly happy and randomly bleh. why does karin put up with me?
I want these feelings to stop. please...
I feel her fading from meeting so many guys. FUCK me. I know she likes some guy but is too shy to talk to them. *sigh* I don't even know what to say anymore. I love karin so much, but I can't fucking make anything right lately FUCK. KILL ME
I don't feel the same. I made a vid for karin.
But i fluctuate between liking it and not giving a shit. Lately i've been so fucking bi-polar
the smallest things are botherhing me.
I feel constatnly irritated by everything i touch including my clothes or even if i'm naked. My body is sore.
I sweat randomly.
my heart starts randomly racing and randomly just wants to give up on life.
I don't know what's going on and its affecting the people around me.
I'm afraid karin won't beable to handle this stage of me and leave me.
I keep making small mistakes that make me wanna kill myself. I was hitting myself but i stopped cause it makes karin sad. All i do is bother her make her sad or mad now a days.
I feel she is going to tire of me quick and leave me. I feel so sad thinking about it. What the fuck is going on in my head. I think the whole not seeing karin in person as much is killing me. I get so manic-depressive. Randomly happy and randomly bleh. why does karin put up with me?
I want these feelings to stop. please...
I feel her fading from meeting so many guys. FUCK me. I know she likes some guy but is too shy to talk to them. *sigh* I don't even know what to say anymore. I love karin so much, but I can't fucking make anything right lately FUCK. KILL ME