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Hello journal. It has been awhile. hmm... Let's see. I've visiting Karin I think 3 weeks in a row now? Haha We've kinda been arguing alot, but they usually don't last too long, and they are usually over something stupid that i get mad about. I think she will get tired soon and stop caring about me.
I feel that she might leave me soon. =( I can't do what i used to. No flowers or anything because I don't have the money to finance those nice things, and she definitely deserves it all. I drive 60 miles and my body becomes sore and thus I become cranky and irritable. I sadly take it out on her and i am super sorry. Her bed is getting better though since we put that sleeping bag as a pad. but yeah... We can't have regular sex either... I liked cuddling naked with her and stuff haha. We can't be comfortable doing it. We always gotta look out.
Dorm life sucks, but at least the food is good haha. I still love karin, and lately it seems like a higher force is teasing me testing me tempting me, but i will not budge. So many girls have been popping in and trying their luck it seems. I will admit it is kind of tough, other girls are pretty and as a first impression it's nice and if i was single than it would be a different case. But I am with Karin and they don't compare.
She doesn't smoke
doesnt drink
She is absolutely beautiful(although I wish she would be more confident with herself. She is still shy around me and about the way she looks.)
likes to dance and sing on occasion
always puts up with my bi-polarness.
Totally laid back (although it can lead to lazy and undecisiveness)
Always stays by me until I feel better when I am down emotionally.
Actually contributes to the relationship and I don't always find myeslf putting more into the relationship than her. She's always happy to give a helping hand. She is awesome. Those other girls trying have no chance, so they should just stop.
I guess I just need to adjust to this transition. I still wish she lived in the valley. I could see her more often with less effort haha.
I wish I had more money to get her stuff.
I feel that she might leave me soon. =( I can't do what i used to. No flowers or anything because I don't have the money to finance those nice things, and she definitely deserves it all. I drive 60 miles and my body becomes sore and thus I become cranky and irritable. I sadly take it out on her and i am super sorry. Her bed is getting better though since we put that sleeping bag as a pad. but yeah... We can't have regular sex either... I liked cuddling naked with her and stuff haha. We can't be comfortable doing it. We always gotta look out.
Dorm life sucks, but at least the food is good haha. I still love karin, and lately it seems like a higher force is teasing me testing me tempting me, but i will not budge. So many girls have been popping in and trying their luck it seems. I will admit it is kind of tough, other girls are pretty and as a first impression it's nice and if i was single than it would be a different case. But I am with Karin and they don't compare.
She doesn't smoke
doesnt drink
She is absolutely beautiful(although I wish she would be more confident with herself. She is still shy around me and about the way she looks.)
likes to dance and sing on occasion
always puts up with my bi-polarness.
Totally laid back (although it can lead to lazy and undecisiveness)
Always stays by me until I feel better when I am down emotionally.
Actually contributes to the relationship and I don't always find myeslf putting more into the relationship than her. She's always happy to give a helping hand. She is awesome. Those other girls trying have no chance, so they should just stop.
I guess I just need to adjust to this transition. I still wish she lived in the valley. I could see her more often with less effort haha.
I wish I had more money to get her stuff.