i hate being emotionally attached for fear of getting hurt

i like never update this thing.

i guess things are getting better with life. we're friends again, its somewhat nice. i didnt win my "pageant" haha. hmm other than that i have nothing to say like usual. i want a prom date.

im no ones best friend anymore, but thats my own fault. i dont take time for myself or my friends.

when is it going to happen? im referring to two things, btw.

1st period break downs, sweet deal. he's sweet. im in need of repair, sorry for being bitch, bad friend, not there, ect.

bad week. probably lost a friend and remembering one i use to have. im a horrible friend.

hicks.

yeah i dont sleep that much anymore. i need a lot of sleep. i got every outfit that i needed for junior miss. im burnt out, but thats okay. i hope im not going for someone new. i hate having my head up in the clouds. i dont think that i do, it would be another dumb move on my part. at least this one has a plan for himself unlike a lot of other boys ( Read more... )

he has been nice to me, and ive been a bitch. i keep him at arms lenght so i dont grow attached to something that doesnt really exsist. i feel bad for bad mouthing him when he starts being nice to me, i hope this continues and i will work on my bitchiness towards him. i hate him but i love him and i hate that i love him. i dont mean love like love ( Read more... )