FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
hmmmm. lets see. this is not the best week 4 me.
im so FUCKIGN aggrivated wit the pple i babysit 4 and skool.
mkay hear this. alright back 2 june. skool ends- few days later i go to camp n need 2 wake up MAD early n stay up all night. super tired. day after i come back i start skool. so im up early all weekdays n then id liek babysit or have somethin do early on weekdends. finally skool just ended. the day it ends. the pple i babysit 4 tell me that they need me mon - fri 4 the rest of summer from like 8-6.
thats fuckin redic. they didnt even god damn ask me. no they just told me i was employed n told me,
oh and ps- if u didnt know, they kidna rip me off, they pay me fuckin 5 an hour. in a week of work i work 50 hours n only make 250 however, if iw as makin normal i would make about 357.50 yes i checked. so they r rippin me off a lil over a hundred dollars a week.
oh and the best part is im also their cleanin lady so on top of workin 50 hours a week 4them ima clean their house.
ohh annd it gets better! this is until the day i go to skool, n once skool starts im there every single day after skool, so iwont b able 2 hang out wit anyone on skool dyas, annnnd kenny works sat mornings n i do sat nights.
so sunday is like the only day i can really do shit, n i have 2 rotate betweem my friends and my boyfriend.
haah. isnt that amazing?!
fuck.
not.
im so upset im fuckin 17 and i have no god damn life. my life is raising 3 lil kids. n he event old me i raise them, i was like, yeah im not stupid if ucking know, i spend more time then they do wit their own kids, n its been like this 4 a few years.
its annoying.
i been so tired all summer, i feel so over worked, i dont remember sleepin in liek at all. maybe 5 days the entire summer. no joke.
i barely had any sleepovers n barely been able 2 do fun shit.
whatever,
yay.
on top of this all, 2morrow has been 4 years since my parents n since i started gettin really depressed. its been 4 years since id rather be dead then alive.
n i nkow i shouldnt let it bother me, but its not just the parents, that was just like the start of when i started feelinr eally depressed, so 2morrow is just not gonna b the ebst day of my life.
kenny is really upset cause he says i dont ever trell him person stuff. n hes right. hes told me EVERYTHIGN personal in his life, and hes only told me n mike, he hasnt told 1 person besides us 2 n thats pretty serious. n yet he doesnt know 1 thing bout me. im not kiddin. n i dunno i feel bad but i dont liek talkinb otu personal shit i just feel stupid.
ohh and exams were last week n this thursday,
im stressed,
AND
on top of all this fuckin stress guess what literally just CROSSED my mind.
UI 4GOT 2 FUCKIN SEND IN MY HAPPENING APPLICATION. i been wantin 2 do it so badly n prayin i could give the reality talk, n i was hopin 2 get it, n now i cant even do happening, im so so so so so so soooooooo pissed at myself. i seriously just completely 4got, i just been stressed n not home it just didnt ring a bell.
and its my senior year, like the 2nd last 1 i can do=[
ugh whatever,
this is my luck.
im really not havin the ebst of the weeks.
im so tired. i snuck out 2 see kenny last night n came home around 330 ish n hada wake up around 830 n i gotaa b up maddddd early again. cause oh yeah. i have no life n fuckin raise kids all god damn day.
shoot me. please. it will make me a lil happier.
the end,
im so FUCKIGN aggrivated wit the pple i babysit 4 and skool.
mkay hear this. alright back 2 june. skool ends- few days later i go to camp n need 2 wake up MAD early n stay up all night. super tired. day after i come back i start skool. so im up early all weekdays n then id liek babysit or have somethin do early on weekdends. finally skool just ended. the day it ends. the pple i babysit 4 tell me that they need me mon - fri 4 the rest of summer from like 8-6.
thats fuckin redic. they didnt even god damn ask me. no they just told me i was employed n told me,
oh and ps- if u didnt know, they kidna rip me off, they pay me fuckin 5 an hour. in a week of work i work 50 hours n only make 250 however, if iw as makin normal i would make about 357.50 yes i checked. so they r rippin me off a lil over a hundred dollars a week.
oh and the best part is im also their cleanin lady so on top of workin 50 hours a week 4them ima clean their house.
ohh annd it gets better! this is until the day i go to skool, n once skool starts im there every single day after skool, so iwont b able 2 hang out wit anyone on skool dyas, annnnd kenny works sat mornings n i do sat nights.
so sunday is like the only day i can really do shit, n i have 2 rotate betweem my friends and my boyfriend.
haah. isnt that amazing?!
fuck.
not.
im so upset im fuckin 17 and i have no god damn life. my life is raising 3 lil kids. n he event old me i raise them, i was like, yeah im not stupid if ucking know, i spend more time then they do wit their own kids, n its been like this 4 a few years.
its annoying.
i been so tired all summer, i feel so over worked, i dont remember sleepin in liek at all. maybe 5 days the entire summer. no joke.
i barely had any sleepovers n barely been able 2 do fun shit.
whatever,
yay.
on top of this all, 2morrow has been 4 years since my parents n since i started gettin really depressed. its been 4 years since id rather be dead then alive.
n i nkow i shouldnt let it bother me, but its not just the parents, that was just like the start of when i started feelinr eally depressed, so 2morrow is just not gonna b the ebst day of my life.
kenny is really upset cause he says i dont ever trell him person stuff. n hes right. hes told me EVERYTHIGN personal in his life, and hes only told me n mike, he hasnt told 1 person besides us 2 n thats pretty serious. n yet he doesnt know 1 thing bout me. im not kiddin. n i dunno i feel bad but i dont liek talkinb otu personal shit i just feel stupid.
ohh and exams were last week n this thursday,
im stressed,
AND
on top of all this fuckin stress guess what literally just CROSSED my mind.
UI 4GOT 2 FUCKIN SEND IN MY HAPPENING APPLICATION. i been wantin 2 do it so badly n prayin i could give the reality talk, n i was hopin 2 get it, n now i cant even do happening, im so so so so so so soooooooo pissed at myself. i seriously just completely 4got, i just been stressed n not home it just didnt ring a bell.
and its my senior year, like the 2nd last 1 i can do=[
ugh whatever,
this is my luck.
im really not havin the ebst of the weeks.
im so tired. i snuck out 2 see kenny last night n came home around 330 ish n hada wake up around 830 n i gotaa b up maddddd early again. cause oh yeah. i have no life n fuckin raise kids all god damn day.
shoot me. please. it will make me a lil happier.
the end,