its scattered so forgive me..

[unstablerach]

well i talked to my mom the other day bout what she thought me and Michael bein roomies(not that it REALLY mattered what she said cuz i'm almost 21 but i still value her opinions greatly) and we had a long talk and she was like i actually think it would work quite well for both of you..she was like b/c w/u and all ur drama noone is gonna want to room w/that(which i already knew that)lol and she was like but Michael already knows bout that right?? and i said "yes,poor Michael and his 16th b-day..yes he is WELL aware of the drama that follows me.." and she just laughed and then i asked her if she thought dad would make a big deal bout it ,she was like "it doesnt really matter anyway b/c he wont say anything bout it to ur face,he'll just tell me and the rest of the family bout it later when ur not around.. cuz u know how he is"..which is sooooooooo fuckin true..and then she was like "its ok i can vouche for Michael"..she was like u just do what u wanna do it'll be ok ..and then we thought bout it some more and i really think he'll be fine with it for the sheer fact that Michael is in fact gay..and that livin together will DEF. mean NOT shackin up..lol which he seems to think..i'm not goin to get in to what he thinks bout me..but i just think it will work out on all fronts..so i hope it really really does..anywho it was AWESOME to see Liv tonite that made my nite..i really miss her ,i was glad she was in my group!! c@p i didnt feel like me tonite ,actually i havent felt like me all day..i started seein those dreaded images again ,and they wont go away ,i havent seen them in a while ,i thought they were gone but apparently there not..i know what triggered them i just dont know why they triggered them now and not at others times..i dont know its weird and it scares me..it makes it even harder to close my eyes..but i'm soooo tired in all senses of the word..i just need to make them disappear and i'll be ok..and i have another damn sinus headache too thats makin it very hard to concentrate..hit me and maybe i'll wake up..

Love ya,
Rae