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And then the moment came where I realized how much I miss being pregnant came. This is a surprising and new feeling for me. I hated being pregnant having a newborn... Post partum everything I didn't really enjoy it the first time and this last time it was... Really wonderful. James and I really connected so much through the growth and birth of Rinoa... I grew and learned so much about me too. It was so awesome to experience it a totally different way. James made me feel so comfortable and happy and he just.... Was there for me. And he enjoyed It too... It was such a special time for us. So now before I go absolutely mad with child needs I have to decide what to do. I am horrified by putting more chemicals in my body but... It has to happen. James and I had sex for... Idk 5 years without any thoughts on the matter... But now we both know we need to think about it not just for responsibility reasons but for health reasons if I get pregnant again we are getting into risky territory... Every subsequental pregnancy post c section adds way more risk to rupture... And every c section I add on adds more risks. So what do I do.... I wish there was a natural way of not becoming pregnant.