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The latest livejournal entry. damn im so tired. im so bored. so.... sad.. today was not a good day. well i guess we could call it a regular day then ! anywys i was very exitied about going to scareowind s today but i had NO ride there and nothing else to do.. i was pretty upset anyways and i had a lot of things on my mind. so my stepdad came upstairs and i was already crying and then he started lecturing me and shit. and then was like c'mon we are going out to dinner. dammn i was pissed but i just gave up cux there was nothing i could do about it or anything so i was like whatever screw this shit. so he took me to birkdale... to this restaurant in there. dont worry i hid my best because it was embarrassing enought being there with him. i just want my mom here. shes out of town again.. and wont be back till sunday. so bascially thats what i did i sat on my ass on a FRIDAY night watching tv and iming people. i mean i dont wanna sound like im bitching and gettin pissed just because i didnt go somewhere. i just hate it when you have plans you wanted to go to relaly bad and they get cancceld....i find it really hard to......well. truthfully i find it hard to actrually live my life lately without something going wrong. even if its something little. I feel like im being punished for living. every day some bad happens lately where i either end up crying or something.... i dont get it... ive been praying about it lately to. i wish i could understand why im like this. and why i did the mistakes i did. and why im me... ill never know.. but right now what i want more than anything is to do better. and at least try to make some things right. which is what i havebeen doing lately. i have noticed a drastic change. im pretty proud of myself i guess you could say. ive made alot of promises to myself that i dont plan on breaking. because im better than that. but anyways.... lets see what tomorrow holds cuz im fuckin tired..
-Bobbi
3/24/05 Never will get over you.
The latest livejournal entry. damn im so tired. im so bored. so.... sad.. today was not a good day. well i guess we could call it a regular day then ! anywys i was very exitied about going to scareowind s today but i had NO ride there and nothing else to do.. i was pretty upset anyways and i had a lot of things on my mind. so my stepdad came upstairs and i was already crying and then he started lecturing me and shit. and then was like c'mon we are going out to dinner. dammn i was pissed but i just gave up cux there was nothing i could do about it or anything so i was like whatever screw this shit. so he took me to birkdale... to this restaurant in there. dont worry i hid my best because it was embarrassing enought being there with him. i just want my mom here. shes out of town again.. and wont be back till sunday. so bascially thats what i did i sat on my ass on a FRIDAY night watching tv and iming people. i mean i dont wanna sound like im bitching and gettin pissed just because i didnt go somewhere. i just hate it when you have plans you wanted to go to relaly bad and they get cancceld....i find it really hard to......well. truthfully i find it hard to actrually live my life lately without something going wrong. even if its something little. I feel like im being punished for living. every day some bad happens lately where i either end up crying or something.... i dont get it... ive been praying about it lately to. i wish i could understand why im like this. and why i did the mistakes i did. and why im me... ill never know.. but right now what i want more than anything is to do better. and at least try to make some things right. which is what i havebeen doing lately. i have noticed a drastic change. im pretty proud of myself i guess you could say. ive made alot of promises to myself that i dont plan on breaking. because im better than that. but anyways.... lets see what tomorrow holds cuz im fuckin tired..
-Bobbi
3/24/05 Never will get over you.