5
sunflowers and daisies
roses and thorns
typical
never ending self imposed sentence of an inibility to do what I want when I want it
now now now
simply ticking down the hours days years
untill the right time the right time
why not now
why
am I not myself is this not my life
why this unending timing issue
as if the time will determine the outcome
but of course it will
this seems more important though
fuck time
its non existant right?
everything has allready happened
so why would the order matter so much
patience has never been a virtueof mine
ive waited my whole life for something diffrent
and I know I must be that change
but i'm lazy
so sue me
im afraid of doing the wrong thing
make the wrong decision
could change everything
but thats what I crave
right?
I just need to make up my mind
roses and thorns
typical
never ending self imposed sentence of an inibility to do what I want when I want it
now now now
simply ticking down the hours days years
untill the right time the right time
why not now
why
am I not myself is this not my life
why this unending timing issue
as if the time will determine the outcome
but of course it will
this seems more important though
fuck time
its non existant right?
everything has allready happened
so why would the order matter so much
patience has never been a virtueof mine
ive waited my whole life for something diffrent
and I know I must be that change
but i'm lazy
so sue me
im afraid of doing the wrong thing
make the wrong decision
could change everything
but thats what I crave
right?
I just need to make up my mind