sometimes i miss him so much that i don't think i can take it...

and i feel like i can't even breathe

i'm 19 fucking years old...

what the fuck have i been doing to make this fly by so fast?

i'm a little scared to grow up :/

ps- it's supposed to snow on my birthday. psssh!

ok so i have a 5 page paper due on thursday for my humanities exam...and i'm updating my livejournal ( Read more... )

10 Firsts ( Read more... )

i haven't updated in ages. life is great right now. i met a boy. his name is grant. he tells me nice things and i like him a lot. i love it when he kisses me and wraps his arms all the way around me. i like how he whispers sweet nothings in my ear. i love how i can be the biggest nerd around him and he still thinks i'm the most amazing girl he has ( Read more... )

he makes me want to FUCKING PUKE

i never thought i could have this much HATE in my heart...

i'm sitting here listening to dave with jordan and david fighting in the background and i can't help but be in a crappy/sappy mood. i've been holding a lot of things in lately and all these emotions are starting to get to me. i don't know how i feel about mitch, i miss someone back home, i hate that friends have hurt me, and i can't stop watching ( Read more... )

so it's 12:30 and i'm totally putting off reading a chapter of my humanities book because it is so freaking boring i want to shoot myself in the head. i haven't updated in a long time. i'm in college now and it's just absolutely amazing. school is great. i like most of my classes for the most part. being just THAT much closer to being in the dea ( Read more... )

i had a boy in my room until 7 in the morning singing me dave matthews on his guitar.

college couldn't be any better....

well, i'm lying in my bed looking around at my empty room and i can't help but think about how much my life is about to change. this is one of the last nights i will be sleeping in "my" bed. this room isn't going to be "my" room anymore. and pretty soon this house isn't going to be my "home" anymore. kind of depressing ( Read more... )