The Potential To Blink Again.
You lay yourself down to sleep. It's been a long day. It's been a fair day. This sleep is all that you need to complete it. Just get settled. Get comfortable. Close your eyes and embrace the quiet, the serene dark that slowly surrounds your vision to prove to you just how much you deserve the relief. You are ready and you are vindicated. Just one last breath and you are out. You don't even see darkness. When you are ripped from your bed and there is black and purple clouded skies all around. It is cold, and lonely. There is the feeling that fire could rip from the grounds around at any moment. There is so much misery in the air that you feel overwhelmed and your thoughts are poisoned with fear and dread. All you want to do is run, but wherever you go there is no escape, just uncontrollable emotions and confusion.
How did you get to this place? What happened to the end of the life I wish I once had again? I'd take anything over this. 'There could always be worse'. But none of that matters. Hands over your head and your on your knees. Anything to take this pain away. Anything to rid me of this loneliness. Anything at all. Just give me something. A scream mixed with uncontrollable tears into the dark sky and it seems to just open up. Silence that seems to feel like forever but only lasts a moment. Your awake. It is over. Finally. It is gone, but not forgotten. Eventually it will fade with time. But it is forever now a part of your life, even if you don't see it. It is you..
People say things can turn from good to bad in the blink of an eye. I say that things take more time than that. Things are good for an extended period of time and bad for an extended period of time. It just seems that our natural reaction is an unconscious stop sign and a blink of the eye. In that moment it looks like things just turned around on you. But your not alone. The moments you live, between good and bad, are moment that everyone else is living. Going through their own things.
The things we go through in life. The things we experience. They all become a part of us. Even if time allows us to forget things or push them to the back of our minds they forever follow us like ghosts. As they haunt your subconscious. Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it is not there. You can't simply believe only the things you see. You can't simply believe only the things you comprehend. There is so much more than that in life. If only you could see. Do you see? Can you hear?
Withing each person lies the potential to control their own life. For the most part. There are things we can not always control. Fate is a measure of time. It is up to us to establish how much "fate" will take a place in our life. We induce our own change in life. The longer you life, the more change you will experience. As sure as your breathing, you will change in time. Everything in everyday life influences the way you will talk, walk, act, think. There is some influence in everything in some way or another. However it is in you to make what you will of it. We will all go our own way. So many may seem so very similar. You go your way and they will go theirs. You will be alone in ways. But in this journey you will be surrounded by many others.
I don't want to hear people say that they aren't strong enough for anything. Ignorance makes you weak. If you want to be something or want to change something about yourself. Simply do it. You hold the key. Excuses are just that, excuses. We all can have as many excuses as we want. Don't play that game. It will not get you anywhere in the end. We shouldn't live in a society where it is survival of the weakest. The weaker you are the more comfortable you get to live because you can't contribute enough to do anything so what are you really? Your flaws are a part of you, embrace them, but don't treat them like they should be displayed with somber pride.
Why waste your time feeling sorry for yourself. In the end you will have lived your life being the person who was sorry for the things they should have done. Wished they weren't so sorry for what they've done their just going to repeat the cycle until their life is over. We are what we want to be. Even if your not, make it that way. Potential may just be a word. But you can find it in your heart - in your soul; in your actions and your thoughts. Intentions are nice, but when you are measured by the things you do, you have to do what you want to be. In the end, all that you are is all that you do.
How did you get to this place? What happened to the end of the life I wish I once had again? I'd take anything over this. 'There could always be worse'. But none of that matters. Hands over your head and your on your knees. Anything to take this pain away. Anything to rid me of this loneliness. Anything at all. Just give me something. A scream mixed with uncontrollable tears into the dark sky and it seems to just open up. Silence that seems to feel like forever but only lasts a moment. Your awake. It is over. Finally. It is gone, but not forgotten. Eventually it will fade with time. But it is forever now a part of your life, even if you don't see it. It is you..
People say things can turn from good to bad in the blink of an eye. I say that things take more time than that. Things are good for an extended period of time and bad for an extended period of time. It just seems that our natural reaction is an unconscious stop sign and a blink of the eye. In that moment it looks like things just turned around on you. But your not alone. The moments you live, between good and bad, are moment that everyone else is living. Going through their own things.
The things we go through in life. The things we experience. They all become a part of us. Even if time allows us to forget things or push them to the back of our minds they forever follow us like ghosts. As they haunt your subconscious. Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it is not there. You can't simply believe only the things you see. You can't simply believe only the things you comprehend. There is so much more than that in life. If only you could see. Do you see? Can you hear?
Withing each person lies the potential to control their own life. For the most part. There are things we can not always control. Fate is a measure of time. It is up to us to establish how much "fate" will take a place in our life. We induce our own change in life. The longer you life, the more change you will experience. As sure as your breathing, you will change in time. Everything in everyday life influences the way you will talk, walk, act, think. There is some influence in everything in some way or another. However it is in you to make what you will of it. We will all go our own way. So many may seem so very similar. You go your way and they will go theirs. You will be alone in ways. But in this journey you will be surrounded by many others.
I don't want to hear people say that they aren't strong enough for anything. Ignorance makes you weak. If you want to be something or want to change something about yourself. Simply do it. You hold the key. Excuses are just that, excuses. We all can have as many excuses as we want. Don't play that game. It will not get you anywhere in the end. We shouldn't live in a society where it is survival of the weakest. The weaker you are the more comfortable you get to live because you can't contribute enough to do anything so what are you really? Your flaws are a part of you, embrace them, but don't treat them like they should be displayed with somber pride.
Why waste your time feeling sorry for yourself. In the end you will have lived your life being the person who was sorry for the things they should have done. Wished they weren't so sorry for what they've done their just going to repeat the cycle until their life is over. We are what we want to be. Even if your not, make it that way. Potential may just be a word. But you can find it in your heart - in your soul; in your actions and your thoughts. Intentions are nice, but when you are measured by the things you do, you have to do what you want to be. In the end, all that you are is all that you do.