I need a lot of help
I'm very confused. Confused about life, school, work, women, God, everything. Living in Orlando has really screwed up my head and I dont think its going to last very much longer. I think I've taken a giant step backward and its probably going to take me a while to get back to where I was. Step 1 is to get out of here, I've decided to move back home after this semester. As much as I want this whole thing to work out its just not and I'm not the type of person that should be living in such an intimidating environment. There's just too much down here that would probably drive me crazy after a while and I dont have anybody here to lean on. So I'll go back home and pick up the pieces, try to build my confidence back up to where it used to be. I'll be back at my old job where I feel important and useful, not like a schedule filler. Its probably going to take me forever to finish college now, but hey I'm not the only one going through this. Plenty of people go off to college and it just doesnt work out for them, so I guess I just shouldnt feel that bad about it. We'll see if my mind changes but I doubt it will, Orlando only has 5 more days to change my mind. Well I probably wont update again till after spring break, I'll be going home on wednesday and coming back on sunday. Ben Owens signing out.