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yesterday was...an interesting day. went to church (for the first time since Christmas) in Rochester for Amanda's baptism/confirmation. dinner before church was pretty fun...I ended up at the end of the table with Manda's dad and uncle, who just so happen to be D&D players...so I spent more time during dinner talking about D&D than I actually spent eating.
church was kind of a different story. I'm very happy for Amanda, don't get me wrong...in a way, I wish I was as sure as she is about where to go in life like that. it's just that when I stepped into that church last night...I felt extremely awkward. And that was just the beginning. The whoe time I was there, something just felt...wrong. Like I didn't really belong there or something. It all just felt...off. Uncomfortable.
I don't have any idea why it feels so off...I kinda wish I knew...I mean, it just feels strange, that being in church should feel so wrong. I just wish I knew what I'm doing, I guess.
Had kind of a long conversation with Tom about this earlier today, made me feel a bit better I guess. That's what I like about talking to Tom...we always end up talking about serious stuff, but (unlike usually) I never end up feeling like I don't know what I'm talking about or whatever.
Also had a 2-hour phone conversation with Bry today, which was fun...I haven't talked on the phone for that long in absolutely ages. It was pretty fun.
Two weeks from tomorrow is my last exam. That's very exciting.
quotes of yesterday:
"I was sneak attacked by a nun!"
"That's not drowning in sewage water music"
church was kind of a different story. I'm very happy for Amanda, don't get me wrong...in a way, I wish I was as sure as she is about where to go in life like that. it's just that when I stepped into that church last night...I felt extremely awkward. And that was just the beginning. The whoe time I was there, something just felt...wrong. Like I didn't really belong there or something. It all just felt...off. Uncomfortable.
I don't have any idea why it feels so off...I kinda wish I knew...I mean, it just feels strange, that being in church should feel so wrong. I just wish I knew what I'm doing, I guess.
Had kind of a long conversation with Tom about this earlier today, made me feel a bit better I guess. That's what I like about talking to Tom...we always end up talking about serious stuff, but (unlike usually) I never end up feeling like I don't know what I'm talking about or whatever.
Also had a 2-hour phone conversation with Bry today, which was fun...I haven't talked on the phone for that long in absolutely ages. It was pretty fun.
Two weeks from tomorrow is my last exam. That's very exciting.
quotes of yesterday:
"I was sneak attacked by a nun!"
"That's not drowning in sewage water music"